Depression

Hi

I´m so glad I found this community. For the last 3 years or so I´ve felt completely alone with my problems, this is what I have been trying to find :) My life today is really simple and complex at once. I´m socially isolated and been so for almost 3 years now. I had a good run from 2002 to 2005 when I was in hospital, the various wards but now I´ve come to really dislike them since I´ve often been subjected to violence but of course they have many good sides as well.

I have ADD, BDD, SAD, OCD, depression, health anxiety, personaly disorder, memory problems, fear of flies. Frustrating after 2 and a half years constant treatment in hospital, I am now on benefits and live in a tiny apartment downtown in Reykjavík. It´s like I´m allergic to life, most of it, I´m stuck, see a psychiatrist every two weeks and am on five different meds. Actually I´ve started seeing this psychologist, she´s done more for me in four sessions than my doc for four years, now for the first time I have hope my ocd is going away, well at least the worst part, I now really think I can beat this ocd, I had lost all hope. Just dream of being happy and of good health.

But I´d like to think I´m not all serious, I try to have fun when I get the chance and see the positive in things :)

Feel free to leave me a message :)



Lol,this is so weird:

You Are 81% Grown Up, 19% Kid

Your emotional maturity is fully developed, and you have an excellent grasp on your emotions. In fact, you are so emotionally mature - you should consider being a therapist!

There's a 67% Chance That You Need Therapy

You almost certainly need therapy. And there's nothing wrong with that. Lately life has not been easy for you. Why not let a therapist help you sort things out?

Your Wrath Quotient: 13%

Revenge, anger, rage? They're hardly words in your vocabulary. If someone wrongs you, you move on. You rather be indifferent than upset.

You Are 59% Perfectionist

No one would call you a perfectionist, but you definitely have a side of you that strives to be perfect. Try to see your mistakes as learning experiences, and don't be so hard on yourself when you screw up!

You Are 2: The Helper

You always put on a happy face and try to help those around you. You're incredibly empathetic and care about everyone you know. Able to see the good in others, you're thoughtful, warm, and sincere. You connect with people who are charming and charismatic. At Your Best: You are deeply giving, altruistic, and humble. You devote your life to others while caring for yourself too. At Your Worst: You are manipulative and enjoy making other people guilty. Your Fixation: Rejection Your Primary Fear: Deprivation and pain Your Primary Desire: To be loved unconditionally Other Number 2's: Mother Teresa, John Travolta, Princess Diana, Dr. Phil, and Mr. Rogers.

You Are A Good Friend

You're always willing to listen Or lend a shoulder to cry on You're there through thick and thin Many people consider you their "best friend"!

Your Social Anxiety Level: 92%

You have extreme social anxiety. Your social phobia is a serious problem for you, and you definitely need help. And while getting help may seem very scary, it's your only choice... except for hermitude! You Are 56% Phobic You have a few more phobias than the average person. And you're sometimes developing new ones. Try to chill out and conquer some of your phobias. Facing your fears is the only way to get rid of them. How Phobic Are You?

You Are 88% Shy

You are beyond shy - you are most likely have a social phobia. Seek help, and you'll be able to enjoy life instead of fearing it.

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Like darkness so december is my favorite month in Iceland cause it´s dark all day. Like open minded people, sensitive, smiling, honest, kind, loving, caring, people who go out of their way to help others, animals, I love music, being accepted just the way I am now.

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Don´t like it when it´s bright outside, don´t like arrogance, prejudice, bullying,cyberbullying, reading with ADD, psychiatric wards, medication, people staring, war, discrimination, stereotypes, violence, isolation, mental illnesses, not being fit, how it´s difficult for me even to write or say a few words to people I don´t know very well, how I aways have to censor or edit everything I say or write, how anything I say is never good enough for me and that I fear it´s not good enough for the people I talk to, pain, people who see others in desperate need and do nothing being in a position to help, parents who neglect their children, parents who don´t hug their kids, how insecure I am, rejection, grown up people who act like inmature, cruel kids and make fun at the expense of others, it´s pathetic, it disgusts me. Hypocrisy, disrespect, people who think they´re better than me, people who underestimate me, judgemental people, narrowmindedness,

Korn, Slipknot, System Of A Down, Enya, Disturbed, Metallica, Prodigy, Coldplay, Sigurrós, Queen, Sinead O´connor, Hillsong music (gospel, I find peace in listening to this particular band),









Love - Devotion
Feeling - Emotion
Don't be afraid to be weak
Don't be too proud to be strong
Just look into your heart my friend
That will be the return to yourself
The return to innocence
If you want, then start to laugh
If you must, then start to cry
Be yourself don't hide
Just believe in destiny
Don't care what people say
Just follow your own way
Don't give up and use the chance
To return to innocence
That's not the beginning of the end
That's the return to yourself
The return to innocence

"Mad World" All around me are familiar faces Worn out places, worn out faces Bright and early for their daily races Going nowhere, going nowhere And their tears are filling up their glasses No expression, no expression Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow No tomorrow, no tomorrow And I find it kind of funny I find it kind of sad The dreams in which I'm dying Are the best I've ever had I find it hard to tell you 'Cos I find it hard to take When people run in circles It's a very, very Mad World Children waiting for the day they feel good Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday Made to feel the way that every child should Sit and listen, sit and listen Went to school and I was very nervous No one knew me, no one knew me Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson Look right through me, look right through me

IF THE SONG DOES NOT LOAD JUST GO OFF THE PAGE AND THEN LOAD IT AGAIN!

I collect classic literature, I love Dostoevski and Leo Tolstoj but the ADD and all the other sh*t makes it pretty much impossible to read.

Television: My name is Earl, Balls of steel, Everybody loves Raymond, Chappelle´s show and more.





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