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"Spread love everywhere you go. Let no one ever come to you without leaving happier. Mother Teresa "
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LOCATION: United Kingdom
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Hello, My Name is Kellie!
And My Life was normal until the age of 8.
My Mum had a mental breakdown, She has schizophrenia and she was in and out of hospital until i was 11, i Have never liked school, i was bullied for being shy, for not making friends very well. for not being so as out going as everybody else. i kept myself to myself, when i started secondary school things got even harder i found it just so hard to make friends. or to do work, just couldet cope. after awhile i made friends with well girls like me in a way, 'troubled' everything went down hill from then, i was not turning up to school and just mixing with the wrong people, But when i was in school i got close to a teacher called tracy. i turned to her for everything, she was a massive help for me, i could trust her with my life, whenever i was in trouble at school she would stick up for me. by age 12 i was hanging around a bad area. known for drugs,rape, all kinds. but at the time i never knew... i dident understand, i began coming out my shell more and more. i began taking risks, me and friends started meeting older men, drinking,smoking. staying out late. going missing for days on end. at the time i never knew i was just being used and groomed. i thought they just wanted to be friends have a good time, but all the time they wanted something at the end, i was meeting men everyday, sometimes even on my own. it was my life. thats all i had to live for at the time, age 15 i was raped over and over by a guy i thought was trying to help me. i had to go court as a witness to a massive case, aload of men was sent down for abusing and sexually abusing young girls. they never did anything to me this group but i met them and they could of......i was locked in a flat by a mad man, he said he was going to kill me i thought he was going too, and right after my court case i was kicked out of school. and i had no more support of tracy who i really needed at the time, i become a heavy drinker, and was in and out of hospital for being passed out on the floor, i started my new school and i guess i did well. i used to go to this farm as apart of school and it helped me alot. because im a massive animal lover. i also got close to a teacher there but that was soon ended because they thought i was too close, so i was on my own again. when i left school i began suffering really bad from depression and anxiety. and i locked myself away for a long time. i tried killing myself twice by overdose. i tried moving on, i signed up to college but it was just to much for me, i kept on trying other colleges but i gave up, by 17 i was put on antidepressants, i began watching alot of crime storys it gave me a massive interest criminology, i would love to study it one day. i have loads of books and dvds on serial killers. and other crimes. still even now its hard for me to have friends, i just cant trust anymore as much as i used too, well right now im a carer to my mum i do as much as i can i guess, i still struggle myself. i live with my boyfriend in our flat, i have 4 birds, Called Jaffa,Sunny and Lola and peaches and two dogs a jack russell dog called Bessie. and a staffie called Sharlow! im more a animal person then i am a people person, they dont hurt me

i Am a Christian, and after looking for a church for so long iv found the perfect one for me! i attend every sunday, i try to read my bible everyday. i become a christian in November 2013. so im still new to Jesus but im learning. and its great! i Believe your beautiful not by the standards of this world you are beautiful simply because god made you in his image.


i Have a Big Interest in serial Killers. and kids that murder. i watch and read alot about these things. iv read about people such as serial killer fred west. dr shipman he was a doctor and he killed his patients. and still today nobody knows how many hes killed. Jon Venables was just 10years old when he killed a two year old, and a big serial killer who i know alot about is aileen wuornos. i see myself in her in some ways. i relate to her in some of her childhood. i do believe she was mentally ill. and should not of been on death row. a other thing i love is animals! i have two budgies, named sunny and jaffa. and i have a jack russell dog called bessie! animals mean the world to me. i hope to have a carer in animals one day!

Bullys, Backstabbers, Liers, Cheats, SPIDERS! Hate Them. i Dont Like Creepy crawlies If i See Them i Will Scream and Run off.




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June 23, 2014, 4:13 pm
hey i havent been on for so long i hope all i good :)

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sometimes it takes a really good fall to know where you stand.
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From: MNcamper
May 23, 2014, 2:22 pm
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Hey, sweetie. Hope you have recovered from your birthday. I see your pictures on Facebook though I am not really active on there. People...mainly family...have ticked me off. I will soon delete most of them I think and just get my feeds and posts from friends like you. I hope you're doing well. In you're pictures you look happy and I hope that is so. Take good care, dear. ~Nancy

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May 22, 2014, 4:13 am
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'Depression is also a form of fear, and at its deepest, it is also paralytic. It is as useless to ask a person immobilized by depression to summon the power of will as it is to bug a dance of a corpse.' Paul Gruchow, 'Letters to a Young Madman: A Memoir'
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From: snowle
May 21, 2014, 9:48 pm
happy birthday

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From: thomefan
May 21, 2014, 9:23 pm
Happy Birthday!!

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Music has helped me in many ways.
i listen to happy cheerful music, but mostly i listen to singers/artists who i can relate too!
growing up all i heard was my older brothers music and he played alot of Eminem. from the start i loved him! at the time his music was alot of anger, and at the time, i could relate to it because i had alot of anger too... i Can relate to his music in many ways!! His music has been a massive help.

a other singer who i can relate to is p!nk/pink her music speaks to me! her music is very down to earth. and so truthful.

i Love the Band Good charlotte! there music has also helped me so much. they helped me to understand what i was feeling in a weird way...

i just love all kinds of music! music i can relate too, music that i can have a laugh too, music that makes me smile. all kinds.

i Read True Storys,
i Like to Read about serial killers, kids that kill, Girls like me who have been to hell and back.



Ones That Make me Laugh, Cry. Smile,

Reading,Swimming, taking my dogs out for walks, facebook lol. ect

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