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Kitz1982
"'There may be more beautiful times, but this one is ours.' ~Jean-Paul Sartre "
My URL: http://www.depressiontribe.com/Kitz1982

JOB: On Disability
SMOKE: No
DRINK: No
RELIGION: Not Religious
ORIENTATION: Straight
DATING STATUS: Single
MEMBER SINCE: November 1, 2010
POINTS: [ 4000+ ]
GENDER: Male
LOCATION: Oregon, United States
AGE: 33
VIEWS: 4423
STAR SIGN: Cancer
LAST LOGIN: 01.15.16




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My name is Joshua. I've struggled with anxiety disorders since childhood and have been diagnosed with an array of anxiety disorders, depression and ptsd. My coping mechanism has always been to isolate and that generally relives the depression and constant anxiety.
I spent nearly all of age 12 through 22 agoraphobic and only leaving my home for things like seeing a therapist. After leading a somewhat "normal" life from age 23 to 28 I no longer felt I could maintain that and I went on ssi disability in mid 2010. Since going on disability I have not worked and rarely left my home.
I don't see myself ever feeling capable of leaving this comfort zone that I've gotten myself into. I'm very happy with how my life is, but I know when change inevitable comes it will be more than a challenge for me to adapt. Baby steps are wonderful and I would much like to baby step through my entire life, but unfortunately the real world requires leaps and that is something I want no part of.



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"Thinking of the stars night after night I begin to realize "The stars are words"
and all the innumerable worlds in the Milky Way are words, and so is this world too.
And I realize that no matter where I am, whether in a little room full of thought,
or in this endless universe of stars and mountains, it's all in my mind."
~Jack Kerouac


Talking (when I can get the words out)
Starry nights
Quiet places
Reading
Raspberries
Every type of fruit

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Kind people
Thunder & lightning
Baseball
meditation
Being near the ocean



:Myself, my fears, insecurities, anxiety, depression, irrational thinking, etc...
:Keeping myself so isolated.
:Crowds



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From: Ennui79
January 23, 2016, 6:32 pm


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'Hurler comme un loup'
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From: Ennui79
January 21, 2016, 10:25 pm
What's up Josh buddy! I hope you are well:)!!!

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'Hurler comme un loup'
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From: Stellah
January 20, 2016, 7:33 pm


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This is my simple religion. There is no need for temples; no need for complicated philosophy. Our own brain, our own heart is our temple; the philosophy is kindness....Dalai Lama
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January 15, 2016, 5:55 pm
Hello Josh, a big thanks for the awesome Xmas and birthday greetings..very sweet! It's been a while, but always nice to re-connect. I hope you're having a great start to the new year, one day at a time. As for me, it's been up and down. Take good care, my friend. *Hugs* Honey

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Never mistake kindness for weakness.
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From: Stellah
January 15, 2016, 10:46 am
My week is going well. There are never totally good ones. I have so many anxieties that something is always pissing me off, and when I get mad I'll get depressed because I'm mad about things over which I have no control.

Hope your week is wrapping up nicely. I'm watching it rain. Rain is so soothing

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This is my simple religion. There is no need for temples; no need for complicated philosophy. Our own brain, our own heart is our temple; the philosophy is kindness....Dalai Lama
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:Bad Religion
:Devo
:Tool
:Dead Kennedys
:Lilis Suryani

Favorites:
:"The Invisible Partners" by John A Sanford
:"The Proud Highway" by Hunter S Thompson
:"On Language" by Noam Chomsky
:"The Western Lands" by William S Burroughs
:"Art & Physics" by Leonard Shlain
:"The Diaries of Adam and Eve" by Mark Twain

Authors:
Hunter S Thompson
Zora Neale Hurston
William S Burroughs
Pramoedya Ananta Toer
B. Traven

:Every film by Shuji Terayama
:Every film/doc by Chris Marker
:Fear & Loathing in LV
:Sans Soleil
:Farewell to the Ark
:Sympathy for Lady Vengeance
:Audition
:La Chinoise
:Magnolia
:In the Mood for Love
:Lady In The Water
:2046
:Mary and Max
:Daisies
:What About Bob
:Groundhog Day
:Normal Life
:Benny & Joon
:Spirited Away
:Arizona Dream
:This Is Spinal Tap


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