" 'This is my simple religion.There is no need for temples,no need for complicated philosophy.Our own brain our own heart is our temple,the philosophy is kindness.' "
i'm quiet, simple, humble,kind,compassionate,passionate, empathetic, patient and very soft spoken..easy going,openminded,very individualistic and pretty laid back..very mellow i guess you could say (it takes a lot to make me angry today) and still somewhat shy.i am a very forgiving person,and the first to apologize and to admit when i am wrong.i experienced the ultimate rejection in life..a traumatic childhood without love..i was abandoned,neglected and abused.it gets worse. at the age of 10 my mother married a drunken pervert,there are no happy memories.i have always been camera shy, thats why you'll never see my picture here.(and besides,i dont like being stared at,it gives me anxiety,lol).(actually,truthfully,i know better to never say never,lol).i've been married for 23 years.we have two great kids.my son still lives at home while hes attending school,my daughter moved out a year ago.my husband is a recovering alcoholic,sober for nine years! amazing! thank god for AA! it works..but needless to say, much damage was done..between that and my lifelong depresssion things took their toll..we are both to blame..but whatever,we're each living one day at a time and peacefully..we are very supportive of each other today..we live we learn and we grow..never be afraid to message me,my door is always open,i am here to give and recieve support,helping others is what its all about...(nobody has to walk on egg shells around me)..its ok to just be yourself and to speak your mind..i am not one to ignore anybody..i might not be able to always respond right away,but i will respond..(silence sometimes speaks volumes)..the following is the only poem i've ever written..thus far..i wrote it about 10 years ago when i began to heal,to let go of my anger and to forgive...
A Little Girls Plea..
What’s the matter mommy?
Why are you so angry so unhappy
So sad?
I don’t understand why you are always
So mad!
Where is daddy? Why did he leave?
didn’t he love me? Was it because of me?
Tell me mommy! Tell me please!
Please don’t hit me I’ll be good,
I promised mommy I promised I would!
Please mommy!
Don’t lock me down there!
Its dark and lonely I feel so scared.
Please don’t tell me you’ll commit suicide!
What does that mean? does it mean you
Will die?
You cant leave me! I will stay by your side.
Please mommy don’t send me to school. I hate it there!
I can’t think! I can’t learn! i care only about you.
I loved you mommy! I loved you so much!
I needed hugs and kisses and a tender touch.
This is all I wanted was I asking too much?
I wish you could have loved me the way a mother should
But you didn’t know how. I forgive you for this
I forgive you now.
warm,kind
,compassionate
and
down
to
earth
people..spring!..warm
sunny
days,
rainy
days
too..hugs!..swings!!
i
love
to
swing
from
the
trees,lol..i
have
one
in
my
back
yard
next
to
my
fire
pit
and
i
have
one
of
those
old
fashion
porch
swings
hanging
off
the
maple
tree
in
my
front
yard
(hey,its
good
exercise,lol)..hanging
out
in
my
backyard
with
friends
around
the
fire..
solitude
when
i
need
it..long
drives
alone
listening
to
mozart..common
courtesy..
the
ocean,the
sights,
the
sounds,the
smell..and
the
moon!
i
love
a
full
moon!
i
love
thunderstorms
too.love
love
love
the
beatles,
the
soothing
sounds
of
nature
and
beethoven
too-MOONLIGHT
SONATA
..the
world
we
live
in..all
the
violence,
all
the
pain
and
suffering..
negativity..chronic
whiners
and
complainers..having
to
work
so
hard
to
stay
positive..the
disease
of
alcoholism..racism..war..intolerance..injustice..homelessnes
s..poverty..gossip..arrogance..hypocrites..narrowminded,judg
mental
people..shallow
people..vindictive
people..lack
of
common
courtesy..chat
rooms
and
shoutboxes,lol..talking
on
the
phone..winter..
dark
basements..AND..
people
who
try
to
push
their
religion
on
you...My
Life,My
Choice..
to
believe
or
not
to
believe..
i
am
as
worthy
as
anyone
regardless
.."TO
EACH
HIS
OWN"..LIVE
AND
LET
LIVE"!.."STAND
UP
FOR
WHAT
IS
RIGHT,EVEN
IF
IT
MEANS
YOU
STAND
ALONE"
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