Depression Tribe

I’ve suffered with depression with my early teens. I’m not sure of the exact cause; I can only ever remember feeling ‘bad’ and ‘guilty’ all of the time. Or even worse; the sense of helplessness.


During my teenage years I was diagnosed with a relatively rare disease of the nervous system. Many ‘friends’ decided not to have anything more to do with me. So I keep the few remaining ones at a safe distance – its twisted form of self-protection I guess.



Long story cut short? The depression grew worse and I suffered a breakdown & attempted suicide at age 16.



Since then, everything has become a blur to me. I had to stop working last year, so I don’t have any reason to get up and get going, no direction to move to, no purpose in anything anymore. I always feel like I’m balancing on the edge of a hole and if I fall again, I won’t be able to get back up.


My confidence is now none existent and I hide myself away from others more then ever. I don’t know who I really am any more.

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