Depression Tribe

Hi, I'm a 21 year old guy from California, and I've been suffering from depression for the past 6 years, on and off, but it's getting worse. I self harm, I've tried to kill myself twice, I have short intense mood swings, I get anxiety a lot, and I've had morbid thoughts that I've never had before. I always think about suicide, whether I'm serious about it or not. And what doesn't help is that I'm unemployed, I have absolutely no friends (off the internet), and most importantly I have no one to love.Those three things would make things so much bearable. I was diagnosed with major depression and reoccurring depression and that has helped me figure out more about myself and how to deal with it.

I'm hopeful for the future.

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