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Shirra
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My URL: http://www.depressiontribe.com/Shirra

JOB: Artist
SMOKE: No
DRINK: Sometimes
RELIGION: Wiccan
ORIENTATION: Straight
DATING STATUS: Divorced
MEMBER SINCE: May 11, 2013
POINTS: [ 161 ]
GENDER: Female
LOCATION: North Carolina, United States
AGE: 46
VIEWS: 141
STAR SIGN: Taurus
LAST LOGIN: 06.22.13




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I really don't know what to say, to tell you who I am when I am not really sure of my own identity these days. I've been diagnosed as bi-polar, but I wonder if there's more to it than that. If there's more wrong with me than just being on a manic depressive roller coaster.

I've been messed up all of my life, but didn't receive an official diagnosis and begin treatment until 1993. A lot of things about me began to make sense when I met my biological mother back in 1996. It was like looking in a mirror. And it wasn't that we were both "crazy" or looked alike, we owned the same books, we used the same brand of hair color, we both sold the same brand of cosmetics, and we both had similar life experiences. We both are victims of sexual assault. I wonder if I'm living under some kind of curse. I'm a mother of two and I'm watching my daughter having some of the same struggles that I do. However, I try to make her life easier by being more open minded and understanding than my adoptive parents ever were. I don't want her to be like me, to be so messed up that she has no alternative but to resort to medication

Medication.... I've been off it and on it since 1993 and I've discovered that I can NOT exist without it. I might be able to manage things holistically or homeopathically IF my life was different, but I can't manage the stress on my own. I am helpless. I've been in the hospital more than once, which I felt like was a waste of time. It was more of an extended vacation than any form of treatment.

I'm an animal lover, dogs especially. At the moment, I'm cat-less but I'm looking to change that. It feels like I can relate to my animal companions better than I can real people. People tend to let me down, to lead to disillusionment and disappointment. It's hard for me to make friends and keep them. It's just hard to let someone get close to me.


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From: Arachne
May 10, 2014, 10:33 am
Blessed be sister in the craft may your Birthday be wondrous..^.^

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'The spider's touch, how exquisitely fine! Feels at each thread, and lives along the line.'
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From: morella
July 6, 2013, 4:13 pm


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Come to life my second skin to protect the madness locked within.
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June 30, 2013, 10:36 am
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Learning to be grateful while existing with illness
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June 24, 2013, 10:51 am
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Learning to be grateful while existing with illness
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From: summer
June 19, 2013, 3:08 pm
 photo redflower_by_mahafsoun-d4adihq.jpg Thank you for still being here for me even though ive been absent, i do miss you, ive just been so ill..it's just so hard to do anything.All my love dear sister x

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