Depression

I always seem like i dont care what others think about me but i do i care so much i try so hard to perfect myself. I hate being judged on what i do and how i live my life. the important thing is im living right?? I hate people telling me im going to end up killing myself or blah if i cared i wouldnt do it so back off. Im really kind and sweet if u get to know me i care about others and i love helping people. Just because i cant help myself doesnt mean i cant help others. My friends are my life they are there for my and im there for them. My neice Katlynn is my reason for living she is my hope my light my everything!! If she wasnt born i would of killed myself along time ago she is the reason im still here she looks up to me but i look up to her. she trys to be like me and i hate that. When ever im sad and feel like im not worth anything she proves me wrong she is always there to make me smile and she hates when i cry. If i would stop anything that im doing it would be for her. I try to stop and be a good role model but i sadly have to say it isnt that easy that stopping is really hard for me right now. If your wondering what im trying to stop its a few things The major one is cutting not just cutting but hurting myself in anyway that i can. I dont think i deserve better and i probably wont believe u if you tell me i do. I survive each day the best i can and i get through barley but i do get through. i do other things that if u want to know i may tell u but i dont like to advertise them and im not proud i do it. If you want to know anything more about me message me

Talking on the computer
Playing Tennis
Watching kids
Listing to music
Writing in my journal
Taking pictures of others not me!!
Blocking the world out
I Love going to the movies
Being on Myspace
Going on Photobucket
Being on Aim or Msn
Watching T.V
Watching Movies
Collecting Icons
Being around Friends
Helping people
Looking for icons
Reading i love reading a good book

Liars
Fakes
People I cant trust
Depression
Love
Family
My Father
Tony (brother in law)
suicidal thoughts
high school drama
People who think their better then everyone
Being hurt
most Rap music
Racisim
Being hated
Crying
Always Feeling Worthless

My Chemical Romance
Green Day
Likin Park
Yellowcard
Fall Out Boy
Papa Rouch
All American Rejects
Relient K
Simple Plan
Click Five
Bowling For Soup
Nickelback
Three Days Grace
Tim Mcgraw
Taking Back Sunday
Cartel
Plumb
Aerosmith
Good Charlotte
Dixi chicks
Superchick
Christina Agularia
Nick Lachey
Lonestar
The Summer Obsession
The Frey
Sean Paul
Eminem
Panic! At the Disco Kelly Clarkson
Matt Kearny
Evanesence(spelt wrong i know)

ever so much more<33

A Child Called It
>The Lost Boy
A Door Near Here
Silent to the Bone
Cut
Even more Letters Form A Nut
Remember
Night
The Face
The Finger Print Series
Annies Baby
Poetry Books
Self Help Books
Letters From The Inside
Fairytales

and alot more......

RENT
Cruel Intentions
Liar Liar
A walk to remember
Pirates of the Caribbean
Miss Congeniality
The Breakfast Club
Cheaper by the Dozen
Tuck Everlasting
Finding Nederland
Edward Siccorhands
Finding Nemo
Secret Window
Van Healsing
Corpse Bride
Nightmare Before Christmas
Hide n' Seek
Isonmia
The Omen
John Tucker Must Die
The Craft
Step Up
Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle
Waiting
Addams Family
Shrek 1 && 2
ConeHeads
Cant Hardly Wait
Little Black Book
UnderWorld
Wrong Turn
Mask
Girl Interrupted
Cyote Ugly
The Other Sister
Thirteen
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
40 year old Virgin
Queen of the Damned
Interview with the Vampire
Dogma
Speak
LifeTime Movies
Just My Luck
The Break Up
Sky High
Over the Hedge
A Cinderlla Story
Raise your Voice
The Perfect Man
Ella Enchanted!
Fox And The Hound 2
Material Girls
HAPPY FEET

Tears of Blood	Friend2Friend
Self Inflicted Violence