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TessErin
"“Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around.” Leo Buscaglia"
My URL: http://www.depressiontribe.com/TessErin

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SMOKE: No
DRINK: No
RELIGION: Christian
ORIENTATION: Straight
DATING STATUS: Single
MEMBER SINCE: August 2, 2008
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GENDER: Female
LOCATION: Georgia, United States
AGE: 25
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STAR SIGN: Aquarius
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I've been suffering from depression since I was 13. My first suicide attempt was at 14 when I took 14 of my seroquel. I used to cut to feel some different pain, other than the emotional pain I live with day after day. I love to write, read, make jewelry and play with my pets. My pets keep me going. My parents are some what supportive but they don't understand what it's like to have depression day after day. Since they began drinking on a regular basis--and always overdoing it. It's more visible with my mother--I've been having a hard time coping. Despite having struggled with cutting, I'm still irritated with them. I feel a need to prepare for what's to come each day. Weekends are harder because they don't have to work. I HATE myself for not being able to handle this better. Considering all of the f***ed up sh** I've put them through, I owe it to them to at least know how to handle it!! Before this began...I took care of my grandma who had lung cancer and I cherish the time we spent together.
My relationship with God is complicated but I am trying to fix that. I sometimes wonder why He'd put me through this depression or why he makes us suffer with an "invisible" illness.
I'm convinced I have Dysthymia. Ten years feels like forever for me to feel worthless, sad and a waste of breath.

DisorderYour Score
Major Depression:High-Moderate
Dysthymia:High
Bipolar Disorder:Slight-Moderate
Cyclothymia:Slight
Seasonal Affective Disorder:High
Postpartum Depression:N/A
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Writing, reading, playing with my pets: 4 cats, 2 dogs plus my brother's dog we babysit. My pets keep me going in hard times. Roscoe the pug, Harley (RIP buddy), Lexie, Sophie, Misa and Paint(cats) are the family's pets. Gracie, a dog, is mine. My parents got her for me January 23, 2010. She's a rescue :)


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Drama, my sensitive nature (my skin is too thin so to speak) Seeing others having a hard time, the news (at times), my inability to trust people who do not walk in my shoes, the fact I can rarely--and I mean rarely--ask for what I truly need. One perfect example is knowing my younger brother genuinely cares and knows my struggles are real especially after he had a close friend exhibit similar conflicts. I can even remember the date I broke down and was 100% honest with him (9/22/14). I even told him one of my closest kept wishes--if that's what it's called: to be able to literally hold on to someone and cry. He gave me that...yet I can't seem to open up to him again.



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Take away my music and i have nothing,
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July 20, 2015, 12:48 am
thanks for leaving a comment! and for the quote. This is my first day up here and already I feel some weight lifted. It's like I cant talk about this with just anyone and I've yet to seek professional help as of yet. So I'm glad to be around all this support

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From: Ennui79
July 9, 2015, 12:19 am
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'Hurler comme un loup'
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June 16, 2015, 5:52 pm
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The soul always knows what to do to heal itself. The challenge is to silence the mind. ~ by Caroline Myss
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April 19, 2015, 7:59 pm


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Disturbed (my favorite band), Device (same singer as Disturbed) MercyMe, Switchfoot, Lifehouse, Carrie Underwood, Casting Crowns, 4Him, Chris Tomlin, Michael W. Smith, Jars of Clay, Sonicflood, Seal, some Eminem, SOME Britney Spears like 'Stronger', Vertical Horizon, Linkin Park, Duran Duran,Phil Collins, Peter Gabriel, Rush, Three Days Grace, Rise Against and so many more

the Bible, Dave Pelzer's, Nora Roberts', Mary Higgins Clark, Chicken Soup for the Soul, books about depression and how to deal with it (ie "Conquering the Breast Within"), recently I've branched out a bit--after signing up for BookBub emails--and began reading books similar to the ones I listed

Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon, V for Vendetta, Panic Room, Kung Fu Hustle, The Devil wears Prada, Disney Movies especially the animated ones like Cinderella and Peter Pan. I don't care how old I am. Umm Bridesmaids, comedies and romances (a mix of the two is great) and the occational murder drama (can't for the life of me think of one at the moment)


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Writing, reading--to escape my reality, watching forensic shows like Forensic Files and Body of Evidence, making jewelry, listening to music, working with pictures (that includes taking, scrap booking and editing), playing with my fur babies


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