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ThereIsNoNoobs
"Don't ask about my username. I use this for everything so I don't forget it."
My URL: http://www.depressiontribe.com/ThereIsNoNoobs

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RELIGION: Other
ORIENTATION: Straight
DATING STATUS: In love
MEMBER SINCE: May 4, 2013
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GENDER: Male
LOCATION: Maryland, United States
AGE: 18
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STAR SIGN: Capricorn
LAST LOGIN: 09.27.14




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My name is Ian Young. I am currently 17 years old (in case I never update this, this was written in 2013). I'm putting that out there because no one who knows me will ever find this. I am going through a long and severe episode of depression and it's slowly killing me.

My situation is complicated, but I know for sure I'm not the only one in this situation. Basically, I'm having trouble recovering because I'm forcing myself to be this way... sort of. Whenever I start to feel better, I tell myself "this isn't right" and go right back to the bad stuff. But I don't do it on purpose. The best way I can explain it is:

"I feel like I want to be depressed, but I wish I didn't feel like I want to be depressed."

Confusing as sh*t, right?

EDIT (Jan 6 2014): Things have gotten unbelievably better since I created my account. That whole weird thing is gone, and my depression is a lot more typical and a lot less persistent. Keep reading and I explain why it got better.

Anyway, let me explain some stuff on my profile.

First of all, I listed my religion as other. This is only because "agnostic" isn't on the list. And yes, I am constantly getting sh*t from everyone for being agnostic.

Up until a while ago, my relationship status was "hopelessly in love". I thought I was in love with a girl who didn't have any feelings for me. I almost killed myself over her. It's not her fault, she just didn't feel the same way. Now we're just friends. If you need anymore detail, I have like 5 or 6 forum posts about it.

But about a month ago (writing this in August 2013) I met someone who changed my life. She has singlehandedly taken me out of the pit I was in and turned me into a better person. She doesn't have depression, but she's had a rough childhood and I'm amazed at how she fought through it all. We support each other through the hard parts. I finally know what it's like to love someone and to be loved back.

I met her at a summer program, so it's a long distance relationship for the moment. Things are going very well. My depression only came back because I came back home.

So... yeah. Me in a nutshell.

ANOTHER EDIT: Nine months and counting! Rachel is still continuing to make my life better every day. I still have no clue how I ended up with someone so amazing.

DisorderYour Score
Major Depression:High
Dysthymia:Slight-Moderate
Bipolar Disorder:Slight-Moderate
Cyclothymia:High
Seasonal Affective Disorder:Slight-Moderate
Postpartum Depression:N/A
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-Sympathy. Nothing is more satisfying then someone asking "are you okay", especially when it isn't completely obvious that something is wrong. As you might have guessed, I don't get much sympathy

-My girlfriend, Rachel. Even though we just met about nine months ago, she has already changed my life more than I though was possible. Thanks to her I'm like a new person. My depression hasn't gone away or even gotten any lesser, but it's much easier to keep going now that I know someone is there for me. After I told her about my depression, I promised her I'd never try to hurt myself. I hope I can that promise.

Arrogance
Bigots
Racists
Sexists
Arrogance
Apathy
Arrogance
Apathy
Ignorance
Apathy

Can you guess which two I hate the most?



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July 21, 2014, 7:03 pm
Just stopped by to say hello to another Marylander,

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From: sosgirl
January 11, 2014, 8:50 pm
Happy birthday!

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I'll let everything unwind...
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August 26, 2013, 6:04 pm
Thank you for stopping by my page.

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August 23, 2013, 8:20 pm
Youn sound like an interesting young person.

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From: lorider1
June 9, 2013, 2:37 am
Just stopped in to say hi:)

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Top 4 in no particular order (this is constantly changing)
Pink Floyd
Radiohead
Vampire Weekend
The Beatles

Other stuff I like
Shakey Graves
Gorrilaz
The Decemberists
Jonathan Coulton
Ozzy Osbourne
My Chemical Romance
John Mayer
Cage The Elephant
Jimi Hendrix
Coldplay
Young The Giant
Animal Collective
Tune-Yards
Neutral Milk Hotel
The Olivia Tremor Control
Unknown Mortal Orchestra
The Velvet Underground
Pony Bones (local band)

I also sing classical and opera, so the genre has grown on me over the years.

Terry Pratchett is up there on the list. I read every Harry Potter book and enjoyed them thoroughly. I read "The Book Thief" recently and it was literally the greatest thing I've ever read.

Usually whatever I saw last is my favorite.

Singing
Playing Guitar
Songwriting (so far I've only written two, both about Rachel. Surprised at how much she liked them)
Graphic Design/ animation
Some game making

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