Depression

Hey

A little about me

I have a flat in Cirencester UK, I am a vegetarian, I love animals and believe they should be treated like we wish to be treated, I am against any form of animal cruelty, Animals deserve to live life just as much as we do! I don't have anything against people who eat meat, But I will not speak to anyone that agrees with fur or does wear fur! I won't speak to anyone who agrees with animal testing, circus's yada yada.... I don't have any respect for people who don't respect animals!

Ok theres that little bit over!

For the past year or so I have suffered with depression and I'm not ashamed to admit that. It is an illness which has taken over who I am, It got so bad I ended up in hospital because I reached breaking point. Call me selfish...I agree! but it was something I couldn't control if you were in my shoes at the time or have at least suffered with this illness then you would understand and not judge me! I am trying my best to fight it, and I am getting there slowly with the support of my family and my friends. I don't know where I would be now if i didn't have them around me!

A lot of people seem to judge people with depression and just say " get over it " but trust me, it is not that simple! You want to try suffering with Insomnia, anxiety, panic attacks and generally thinking life is pointless, then see if it's that easy to just " get over " Because it isn't easy. Depression is a bastard that is very difficult to fight! So unless you have suffered with it please do not judge me by my thoughts or by my mistakes!

I have a good sense of humor but I've just forgotten how to use it...but it will be back!

The outgoing, funny, confident Abbie is still here, she's just being held captive by something she is trying to fight! Occasionally She does pop up for a while to let people know she is still here and ok...but right now she's in some sort of war and I know she will come out a much stronger person!

Ok moving on....

I'm very stubborn and very argumentative I will always stand by what I believe in, Once I'm stuck on something theres no changing my mind! I usually get on with people quite well, I always give people a chance and I don't judge people by there mistakes ( within reason )

I can be a pretty nasty bitch when someone pisses me off or upsets someone I care about but who isn't!?

I love my family and my friends, they're all amazing! I've been a pain in the arse but they have all stood by me and given me all the support they could and one day I will repay them for it...I don't know how yet but I will!

All this pretty much sums me up! The only way you can get to know me is read what I have written and decide for yourself whether you want to get to know me more!

You either like me or you don't...It's that simple! If you don't like me, then you're probably not worth knowing anyway so it's no skin off my nose and anyway i'll just have you shot! ;p

My family, my boyfriend, Animals, music,Tv, the rest i cant remember.......

Animal cruelty, liars, selfishness, spitefulness, immaturity, Big egos, bitchyness lol , a lot of ness's lmao.....My ex's, Myself, and my bf when he is being annoying!

I'm into evenescence at the moment...most of those songs relate to me....

Lots......I like to read...when I can actually bloody concentrate!

Lots of them!!!

Well it seems my hobbies at the moment are popping pills ( medication i mean ) ....and trying to sleep!

my <3 belongs to PETA.	Backbone