Depression Tribe

current dxs:: panic disorder, chronic ptsd, schizoaffective disorder(depressive type), bpd, social phobia/anxiety, anorexia nervosa in remission, dissociation
health problems:: fibromylagia, cervical dysplasia, scoliosis, hpv, endometriosis(possible but not technically diagnosed yet), recent new diagnoses:: astigmatism, myopia, porphyria.....
drugs i have taken:: effexor xr, zoloft, prozac, lithium, seroquel, cymbalta, lexapro, klonopin, wellbutrin sr, ativan , zyprexa

current rxs:: no psych ones right now just an antibiotic, tramadol and terbutaline





IF YOU WANT SOMEONe who is happy all the time and if you want roses and lollipops you have come to the wrong person I am who iam, and iam not always ok happy, or just jolly. So find your roses and lollipops somewhere else. Life is what you make of it. I dont regret anythign in life, bc if I didnt make mistakes I wouldnt be who Iam today. And I wouldnt have learned a damn thing. Regrets are for those who havent learned their lessons from life. I am one of those people you will meet that stick to what they say, and really honestly I have strong opinions and am very blunt so if you can not take that then you might not like me.


I AM SO IN LOVE WITH MY HUSBAND ROB. .WE have lost our 3rd baby a little while ago.

I have a lot of issues, a lot of mental illnesses, and I struggle with them everyday....
if you want to know more about them, just ask.
I have major depressive disorder I also have panic attacks and social anxiety.
I suffer from an addiction called cutting, I am an ex pill popper, I am a recovering anorexic
I have had depression since I don't know how long. I also have dissociation fugue, and a couple other dissociation disorders. I don't remember large chunks of my life. And many days I won't remember anything I have done, or where I have been, and wake up from my funk and not know how I got here, or why I am doing this or that.
I am pretty screwed up. but yet Iam alive adn surviving



BIG DISCLAIMER:: if you are male, and over a certain age, I wont add you unless you send me a message explaining why, this is not to be discrimatory, but to protect myself..thank you.

music,movies, dancing esp ballet,swimmmng, LOVES ANIMALSFAVS ARE gorillas and orcas...beign ok with who iam, dancing inthe rain,walking inthe rain,holding his hand,running through the park in the rain....while he laughs at me for doing so.

I LOVE MY HUBBY.

liars, alot of rap music,fake people,hurtful people...., depression eating away at my soul, no matter how good or bad thingsare in my life always being depressed, how i look, my weight, being told iam beautiful , people who think having a n ed is the right wayto lose weight and think it is cool, people who think eating disorders are a lifestyle

i like everything from death metal,black metal, rock(like him and such, 3 doors down...) to some country, i like trance, techno, some pop, and i dont care if you dont like my music get af ucking life.., lacune coil, some him, suffocation, cryptopsy, otep, sycophant, wumpscut, some manson, cradle of filth, dimmu borgir, rammstein, house, nirvana, placebo, dresden dolls, depeche mode, gabber hardcore, some happy hardcore and orgy, crossfade, frou frou, a perfect circle, rob zombie, staind, some seether, mudvayne, saliva, nightwish, chevelle, deadsy, adema, enya, behemoth, sarah mclaughlin, jewel, sheryl crow.....more to come...too many to list...but working on i

wasted, the best little girl in the world

The eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, lemony snickets series of unfortunate events, underworld, blade, saw, the grudge(very funny not really a horror more like a comedy), the hole, matrix, lord of the rings, star wars all of them, Girl Interrupted, breakfast club, slc punk, Project x, 28 days later, willow, pretty in pink, forever young, the truman show, dumb and dumber, saving lives, life or something like it, Hackers, runaway bride, the princess bride, my best friend's wedding, three days, the saint, donnie darko, bruce almighty, scream 1, 2 and 3, queen of the damned, interview with a vampire, the aviator, freddy, the nightmare on elm street, dogma, million dollar baby, hide and seek, 13 ghosts, wishmaster, brotherhood of the wolf, night of the living dead, return of the living dead, sixth sense, final destination, dawn of the dead, soul survivors, requiem for a dream, the boondock saints, mr and mrs smith, mr. nice guy, rumble in the bronx, akira, drunken master, krull, unbreakable, constantine, big trouble in little china, ghost in the shell, princess mononoke, ninja scroll, spirited away, eight crazy nights, the lion king, tarzan, a beautiful mind, garden state, stateside, the skeleton key, and fantastic four, cry wolf, brothers grimm, and flightplan, memoirs of a geisha, natural born killer, a time to kill, chicken little, the united states of leland, and domino, the wedding crashers,super troopers, training day

swimming,dancing singing, writing poetry, staying alive

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