By: MForeverChained
Mood: Sad
Date: Nov 19, 2012
Music: None

So, I'm not mad right now although I still am depressed... I just want to end my life right now honestly. If it wasn't for seein gmy boyfriend now and then I would have ended my life a long time ago. It's surprising because I told myself that I would never get so attached to a guy that I would think about killing myself if he left me. He hasn't left me even. My boyfriend is just forbidden by my mother to see me but my body is telling me that it's the same thing.

I don't feel like doing anything anymore. I just feel like eating and playing on my computer. I know I'm going to fall behind in my school work although I can't help it. I just don't want to do the work. I feel fat and ugly and unloved. I didn't even enjoy my shower tonight becauase I was so depressed. I love showers! This just isn't me and I don't like it. Although not matter how much I don't like it I can't shake the feeling... I just was to crawl under a rock and die...