Its my birthday. so why am i sad?
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By:
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Jaydaa
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Mood:
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Don't know
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Date:
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Dec 10, 2012
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Music:
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None
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Its
my
birthday
and
everyone
arund
me
is
happy
but
me?
I
could
careless.
Still
woke
up
this
morning
wishing
i
didnt,
wishing
he
loved
me,
wishing
everything
would
change.
My
poor
mom
has
to
put
up
with
me,
so
i
have
to
pretend
like
im
happy
when
really
i
feel
empty
and
i
can
literary
feel
my
body
wanting
to
give
up.
My
body
is
tired
of
fighting
the
depression.
I
just
feel
like
ive
been
laying
in
my
death
bed
since
i
was
12
;
too
long. My
birthday
wish
is
to
be
alone,
with
someone
who
understands
what
im
going
through
so
i
can
just
tell
everything
and
not
be
judged.
I
just
want
to
spend
the
rest
of
my
life
with
someone
who
knows
what
its
like
to
not
want
to
live
anymore.
I
want
to
wake
up
and
feel
loved
and
wanted. But
you
know
what?
This
is
reality
and
that
would
never
happen
because
life
is
sh*t.
We
have
meds,
therapists,
council
groups,
but
none
of
those
will
stop
someone
from
killing
themself
if
you
just
dont
understand. My
mom
took
me
to
the
therapist
and
she
justdidnt
get
it.
She
pretended
that
just
by
buying
me
whatever
i
want
and
telling
me
its
gonna
be
okay,
is
gonna
make
everything
okay.
And
i
cant
even
be
mad
at
her
because
what
can
she
do?
Her
innocent
daughter
wants
to
die
because
she
hates
her
life.
So
my
mom
thinks
to
herself
"what
did
i
do
that
was
so
wrong?"
But
the
thing
is,
everyone
always
thinks
its
their
fault
im
like
this.
There
all
so
selfish.
Maybe
i
just
hate
life?
Maybe
i
just
hate
myself?
Maybe
im
tired
of
living
in
this
world.
ITS
ME.
not
anyone
else. Honestly;
i
probably
would
never
have
the
courage
to
kill
myself
but
i
can
tell
you.... If
i
was
standing
in
the
middle
of
the
highway
and
a
car
was
coming
toward
me,
i
wouldnt
move. Happy
birthday:
to
the
girl
who
isnt
worth
living.
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