MY Day
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By:
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sadviolinist
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Mood:
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Mellow
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Date:
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Jan 31, 2013
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Music:
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None
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It's
cold
and
raining
out.
Fitting
that
I
should
be
stuck
inside
the
house
on
my
first
day
of
being
alone
here
in
years.
That's
okay
though,
I
got
a
lot
done
this
morning
already
and
did
all
the
errands
I
had
to
do
so
at
least
I
don't
have
to
go
out
in
it
and
get
soaked.
I've
decided
I
must
have
a
sense
of
doing
things
at
the
wrong
time.
I'm
supposed
to
start
a
diet/exercise
routine
when
the
Abilify
makes
me
hungry
all
the
time,
and
I
also
decided
to
try
to
switch
to
an
Electronic
Cigarette
so
that
I'm
not
getting
all
the
smoke
and
tar.
Let's
just
say
that
doing
both
things
is
almost
impossible
for
me.
I
smoke
when
I'm
stressed
or
hungry,
but
now
I
can't
have
a
cigarette
to
curb
my
appetite.
Oh
well,
I'll
get
used
to
it
somehow,
lol.
Eventually
my
goal
is
to
quit
completely,
but
right
now
I'm
just
doing
the
best
I
can.
Today
is
going
to
be
a
laid
back
day
for
me.
I'm
going
to
try
and
relax.
This
past
week
has
really
got
me
strung
tight,
and
I
know
that
leads
me
into
anxiousness
and
that
is
somewhere
I
don't
need
to
go.
As
for
details
on
my
Uncle's
condition
I'm
pretty
much
in
the
dark
except
that
he
was
hallucinating
that
he
was
in
a
condemned
building
and
that
there
were
cockroaches
crawling
out
of
the
walls.
My
poor
Uncle.
:-(He's
still
in
ICU
and
being
watched
carefully.
I
just
called
and
he's
still
sleeping.
They
had
to
give
him
Ativan
to
calm
him
last
night.
He's
apparently
still
under
it's
affects,
but
that's
a
good
thing
~
he
needs
as
much
sleep
as
he
can
get
right
now.
My
Mom
and
Aunt
apparently
fought
again
about
all
of
it.
I
do
not
want
ANY
part
of
this...it
just
escalates
into
madness
and
destroys
the
family
little
by
little.
Today
I'm
going
to
call
Social
Security
and
ask
for
an
appeal.
I'm
going
to
take
the
suggestions
I
got
from
my
friend
Rosey
and
get
incredibly
detailed
about
what
I'm
going
through
with
the
bipolar
disorder,
anxiety
and
personality
disorder.
Thank
you
Rosey
for
telling
me
that!
(hugs) Well,
the
sun
has
come
out
and
the
rain
has
stopped.
We're
supposed
to
be
in
the
mid
40's
tonight.
Maybe
if
it
dries
up
before
tonight
we'll
have
a
fire
and
some
smores...or
maybe
not
since
I'm
not
supposed
to
eat
that
stuff
anymore.
That's
okay,
I
can
still
enjoy
the
fire.
:-)
Hugs
to
all
of
you!
~
Key
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