Mental break down

By: KellieLaLa
Mood: Don't know
Date: Jan 07, 2014
Music: None

i Feel like im going insane. im hating where im living right now, they is always a group of thugs sitting outside right outside the door!!!! a group of them, they look like thugs, they could do anything,im scared to leave my flat because of them, iv rang up the landlord, and they said we cant do anything unless there saying something to you,and all this. it made me breakdown, because its not fair, they should not be standing there in the first place, in the way of the main door. and sitting on the stairs so its hard to get past, its horrible!!!!!

i broke out in tears, and began losing my mind, i rang doctors and i said im going to kill my self. and they said to come in, so went to see my doctor, and shes there saying iv been offered loads of help in the past, i told her i was scared then. but im ready now.

before i was living at my mums, i dident want my mum to know anything,

so now its better, and im ready to get help.

the doctor gave me sleeping tablets for tonight, and tomorrow iv got to see a specialist.

i am losing the will to live......


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January 7, 2014, 6:28 pm

I think you should speak to the police. This sounds like loitering or maybe loitering with intent.


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January 7, 2014, 1:50 pm

I feel for you so much Kelly.  This sounds so awful!  It's so good that you're ready to seek external help.  I hope you get a good specialist.  It's quite amazing what stuff like clonazepam has done for my anxiety and cytalopram for depression.  I find even 5 minutes of meditation, especially "om" helps so much when I do it, which is not often.  Exercise, even just walking my dog around the block daily helps me and stress and work load reduction is key.  It's a complete life constant I have to stick to or else I go into suicidal mode of life is not worth the work and the pain.  I wish you the best.  Take good care and I hope they give you someone to just talk to once a week.  I'm going to try that and I think it will help too.  It's like managing diabetes, a constant balancing act or else we fall.    Good luck, Helen


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