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My Story
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By:
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unsuspected14
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Mood:
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Don't know
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Date:
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Mar 20, 2013
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Music:
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None
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Hello.
New
here,
so
I
thought
it
best
to
go
ahead
and
post
my
story.
Well,
I'm
14
obviously,
fairly
young.
However,
for
the
past
2
years
or
so,
I've
been
struggling
with
my
own
inner
darkness.
Nobody
knows
any
of
this
about
me
either.
I
suppose
I've
done
well,
keeping
up
my
act.
I
appear
happy,
confident,
and
sure
in
who
I
am.
When
in
fact
I'm
just
the
opposite.
I
have
days
when
I'm
happy,
when
I
feel
like
everything
is
perfect.
But
then
the
feelings
return.
Feelings
of
empty,
hurt,
and
pain.
I
don't
let
anybody
know
this,
because
nobody
in
my
family
has
gone
through
what
I'm
feeling.
There
are
some
days
I
have
to
will
myself
to
smile
when
I'm
standing
in
the
crowd.
I
have
comtemplated
harming
myself.
Somedays
I'll
stand
still,
holding
a
knife
to
my
arm,
considering
the
options.
I
haven't
made
the
cut
yet.
To
be
honest
I'm
terrified
that
one
day
I
will.
I
don't
know
why
I
feel
the
way
I
do.
I
have
no
reason
to
really.
I
have
a
loving
mom
and
step-dad.
Three
amazing
sisters,
and
I
do
well
in
school
where
I
have
many
close
friends.
That
doesn't
stop
me
from
crying,
skipping
meals
every
now
and
again,
and
writing
down
the
thoughts
that
run
through
my
head.
I'm
scared
one
day
I'll
hurt
myself
and
someone
when
my
sadness
and
anger
builds
up
and
I
have
to
release
it.
Now
that
you
all
think
I'm
totally
psychotic,
hope
you
see
why
I
joined.
I
decided
it
was
time
that
somebody
knew.
Well,
now
you
know.
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