What is wrong with me?

By: theresbeautyfrompain
Mood: Sad
Date: Dec 10, 2012
Music: None

Do you ever feel like your not really there, Like your a ghost just floating by.
Your just so numb that your not feeling anything or any emotions.
I feel like that. My head is empty. No thoughts, no voice inside my head..... Nothing..... It's like it's hollow. And i'm just a ghost. The last time I felt like this I was just a puzzling person. No one knew how to talk to me. No one could snap me out of it.
This was going on for months. I had a blank look on my face the whole time. It's like I was sleeping walking but I wasn't. If that makes sense. I don't want to go through that again. This made me so depressed and I couldn't help but cry the entire time becuase no one understood me.

How am I meant to pretend to be happy if I don't know whats wrong with me.
The only thing is I can't tell people this. They will judge me. And think i'm even more of a nutcase.


From: RZA324
December 10, 2012, 3:04 pm

You don't have to know what is wrong with you to know how your feeling.  A lot of people think how could he or she be so depressed they have a wonderful life.  Well that may be the case but mental health can be a chemical imbalance it doesn't have to be for any reason but just that.  Just don;t pretend, I did that for yrs. wearing my mask I used to call it, and boy did I do it well.  Until I couldn't do it anymore, and it took yrs. but I was very self destructive when I did take it off, but the weight is gone, don't look as happy as I used to but I am not wearing that mask and pretending.  Seek help if your not already doing that, and don't take more then you can handle.  One step at a time, and don't forget its okay to ask for help, we all need it, but we need to learn to ask.  I never asked for  help, thought I could do it all myself. WRONG........Take care


Don't forget to breathe..........

December 10, 2012, 9:38 am

 Courage my friend. Stop fighting the nothingness. It leaves you no energy for anything else.


Coexisting with mental illness