so
why
do
i
feel
this
way?!
i
feel
all
alone
like
nobody
cares
about
me...does
anyone
really
care
about
me?
cause
i
dont
think
they
do...i
just
got
back
to
my
mom's
house
tonight
and
i
feel
all
alone
like
the
whole
world
would
be
better
without
me...i
feel
all
this
pain
inside
and
for
what?
why
do
i
feel
like
this
and
is
there
any
way
to
make
it
stop?!!?!?!?
i
wish
there
was
but
i
dont
think
there
is...i
just
want
to
let
it
all
out!!
i
have
never
been
a
big
fan
of
the
whole
cutting
thing
but
maybe
it'll
help
maybe
it'll
make
all
the
pain
go
away...will
it?
i
don't
know
i
don't
know
ANYTHING
right
now!!!!
i
hate
feeling
like
this
but
theres
no
way
to
stop
it....and
how
come
no
one
can
see
whats
really
going
on
inside
of
me?!
how
come
i
keep
this
fake
smile
making
people
think
that
i
am
ok?
is
it
normal
to
feel
this
way
or
do
i
really
need
help?
i
don't
know
but
i
just
wanna
make
it
stop
I spent twenty years feeling that way off and on, and finally did something about it last year. I always thought it was normal, but it's not I guess. I always thought I was normal and everyone else is different. Probably not rational thinking. I've done just about everything to make those feelings go away and only ended me up in jail or the hostpital. I finally got help, but it has been a long process getting on the right meds to feel what they call "normal." If I had gotten help when I was your age, I could have prevented alot of disasters that caused the nightmare for me they call life. Instead, my parents tried to award custody of me to the state for being "uncontrollable," and instead of getting help, I ran from the police and took a bus to New York. Since then, I would do great for the longest time, get everything in my life together, then relapse with what I now know is mental illness and ruin everything and have the time of my life doing it. I now know I need to take the medications for the rest of my life, or I'll get the same result. It may be the only way for you to make it stop. Even if no one seems to care enough to get you help, you need to try to love yourself at least enough to get yourself help regardless of what your family may think. It's your life, not theirs and they're not the ones who pay for it if you don't. If you ever need to talk, I'm here and there are many others here on this site that deal with the same things. We all ended up here for a reason and it wasn't from eating too many greenbeans...........lol
i can say u probably need some type of hel.what kind? i do not know. i dont know enough about u. u r welcome to visit my inbox and tell me your story,then maybe i can help u figure out what to do...i care...janet
honey i can't say it\s wrong to feel that way cause i do feel like that sometimes also. what i think it means is time to sit back and reflect on what the situations are and see what you can do to change some stuff.And i know it is way easier to say it than do it to. hope you feel better soon
im all alone
