Depression

I am sure that depression affects my memory and my ability to think through a problem.  When I am going through a good patch I seem to be able to retain information a lot better and I find it easier to concentrate and understand concepts.

You should stick with the studying you are doing.  You will feel a great sense of achievement when you have finished and I am sure it will give you a confidence boost as well.

Also, if you can get into it, it is possible to actually enjoy studying.  If you can just sit down, and forget about all the other crap going on in your head, forget about how useless you think you are, give yourself a break for a bit, and just focus on what you are doing, it can be fun!

I called your bluff and read the blog haha. Its been alittle while since your son's operation, but I hope it went smoothly and he's recovering well.

Best of luck to your son!

Hang in there with your studies also. School is very stressful for anyone but for us 'older' folks, it can be a challenge getting into the routine and trying to learn again. When I returned to college I found some classes that I despised in high school ended up being my best subjects! I guess getting older, made it all seem more interesting to me. I did better with regular classes because I had to stay focused and keep up with the rest, so it was theraputic for me. I don't have the mind to study on my own 'on line', I would just put it off and with classes, I had to go, I had to study and I had to participate. I needed that type of structure. If you are doing it on your own....you deserve credit. ALOT of credit!!

Just keep working at it

J

   Richard,

 I wish your son the best on his surgery and that have a quick recovery.

 Richard take things day by day .

 some of  those online course are very hard so don't beating yourself up over this course...allow yourself time , stop and return to it . then you can see what you need to do..

by the way I did not fall asleep..good luck my friend