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I think I'm done

By: fschubart
Mood: Other
Date: Aug 31, 2008
Music: Erase me


I'm not sure what to think right now. I took as much meds as I can take. I drank an assload of beer. I want to go out on another suicide ride, and I'm trying to stop myself, but I'm not that strong. I've always been the type to know when I'm f@cked and still kick em' in the balls on the way out. Maybe flatten all the police cars tires, and then piss on them on camera, just to make an ass out of them. Right now, I just hurt so much, I just dont want to waste my own life for nothing. I feel like I'm done, and I can't live this way any longer. I'm going for a walk for a while, maybe it will help.......



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From: RichardW
Sep 01, 2008, 12:45 am

Hi, i also hope that the walk helped and that you manage to stay strong through this.

My thoughts are with you and i wish you good luck my friend.

All the best

Richard



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Aug 31, 2008, 11:25 pm

Hey,

     I just wanted to stop by and offer some support in some way.  Your blog post describes exactly how I feel inside.  After reading your profile, I learned that we have similar backgrounds (34 yrs old, Christian, Technical & Education fields).  Also, we both suffer from anxiety and depression too.  Having said that, I thought that it would be important to offer a "pick-me-up", by saying that I hope you stay strong through this rough time.  No doubt, you have a very strong intellect, but also a little young lady that more than likely thinks you are the greatest person who ever lived.  I hope than I am not being too personal here, but I guess, just reminding you that some of us here on Depression Tribe, really respect your accomplishments and the struggles with what you are going through.  If you need anything, just let me know.  Take care,

David



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From: meme
Aug 31, 2008, 09:31 pm

maybe a walk will help...maybe a time to look back will help. if your life has been a bed of roses, then get off the pot...so to speak... if you look back on a pile of manure... give yourself the chance to grow from that manure. if you have survived cr*p before, reflect on it and give yourself a pat on the back...you survived then... you will survive now



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i'm still here
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From: nysmandy
Aug 31, 2008, 08:50 pm

 

I HOPE THAT WALK DID HELP YOU. PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF. YOUR DAUGHTER NEEDS YOU.



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