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By: bubbles
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Date: Sep 08, 2008
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Since saturday i have been even worse and i dont know what to do. You see a man jumped off a carpark on saturday,in front of me, and ever sine all i can see in my head and think about is what happened. I feel that i should of gone up there and tried to talk to him as i might of been able to talk to him but i did nothing except phoned the place were he did it.

From the minute i get up untill the minute i go to sleep all i can see is him falling and hitting the floor,i just want it to all go away and leave me alone. Im going to docs 2day to see if he will help me more because im having suicidal thoughts constantly and more intensive lately plus i cant eat or drink,like 2day nothing as passed my lips and i didnt really av ought yesterday,i just dont know what to do anymore and want it all to end!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



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Sep 08, 2008, 07:27 am

I am sorry for that tragety that you had to endure. I would be in the same boat as you are. Thank goodness today is Monday and that your doctor is available. I wish you peace and calmness of your mind, heart and soul.

I also agree with Sara. I do believe that you did the right thing by phoning for help first. If that gentleman was that determined to end his life there was nothing that anybody could do. Not you or the best professional on earth. So again stop being so hard on yourself. It was his choice to do that and not your fault one bit.

Will keep you in my thoughts. Keep your chin up. Take care.



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From: sara2867
Sep 08, 2008, 06:24 am

I cant imagine how hard it is for you to have seen what you did- Saturday is only a couple of day ago and am not suprised your thoughts are occupied by what you saw. I really think you are right and going to the doctors is a good idea to be able to talk to someone face to face about what happened. I also really think you need to know that you did absolutely the right thing by phoning for help and not going up there. With the greatest of intentions if you had gone up to try and help and he had jumped anyhow would you now be questioning if things had been made worse? there is always questions we ask ourselves about if we did the right thing but I honestly think in this situation you were so right! Its hard but try to stop being so hard on yourself it wasnt your fault.

I hope you get the help you need.

Take care x x x x



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