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THE EDGE...

By: thumper
Mood: Don't know
Date: Oct 26, 2008
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everyone has an edge...its different for each person but we all have one and we all know when we are dancing dangerously close to it...ive done it before and even though i hope every day to put it behind me i know i will do it again...the past week or so ive been dancing along that edge like i have wings...the one thing i never want to do is to be the drowning man who pulls someone else under with him...so the only thing i know how do do is to crawl away into the bushes like a wounded animal...die or make it through...but either way its on my own and i dont hurt or involve anyone else...the problem is on this site people care...and they worry...and they want to help...and so they worry more...so even though i figure i'm doing a good thing by staying away and not bringing anyone else down or hurting them i actually end up making people who care for me feel worse...because now they have one more thing to deal with...and that is something i never meant to do...i think this site is amazing and its because of every one of you...and i guess the thing is for me to remember that and not take it lightly...i hurt so bad sometimes and i cant deal with it...and if i come here i worry its going to hurt others...or make them never want to have anthing to do with me again....but i never meant to scare, worry or make anyone else's life harder...i'm alive...i'm fighting...i really am trying i swear with everything i am...for me and my kids...and i would give anything to be able to take away every single moment of pain or sadness each one of you has to deal with...but in the end all i can say is im sorry....i am back and i am here and i am your friend anytime you want....thumper



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From: jagger
Oct 29, 2008, 02:07 pm

Hi Thumper! I am so glad you are ok! Never forget you are an important person that has alot people that care for you. You seem like you are an awesome guy and you deserve to be  happy, so keep fighting your illness  you can beat it and we all believe in you! if you need someone to chat with i am here



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From: jeneva5
Oct 28, 2008, 05:05 pm

Welcome back!  I'd love to talk with you sometime if you are interested.

Jen



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Oct 27, 2008, 03:56 pm

you don't always have to go it alone sweetheart!  Lean on someone, sometimes you just have to and they won't mind.  You can't always be the tough guy who can do everything himself.  that is only for like building a bookcase or moving the sofa or something........



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today is not my day, tomorrow doesn't look very promising either!
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Oct 27, 2008, 08:01 am

So why am I always the last to know everything. Seeing that I have been a huge help in the matter once again. I am out of tears today but I am happy to see you are here. I know that doesn't mean the same as ok but it does mean here and that there is still a chance for ok. Give me a shout anytime.



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Oct 27, 2008, 04:03 am

YAY!!!  THUMPER'S BACK!!! :-)

 



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From: robbo66
Oct 27, 2008, 03:24 am

THUMPER!!!!!!!  Oh iam sooooo happy you are still with us. Im crying as I type,Tears of happiness and relief.

God I dont know if I would hug you or give you a smack in the head if I was there boy darl you scared the shit out of me and most at DTribe. Dont EVER think you are a pain or burden to us. We love you as one of our very own.

You have made my day darl...I have missed you so much!

  Love and ((((hugs)))) gaaaaawd and one smack inthe head and lots more ((((((hugs)))))  .Always here for you

                                                           Robyn  xxxxx 

 

 

 



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From: RichardW
Oct 27, 2008, 02:47 am

Hi Thumper,

Great to see you and i am here if you ever need a chat my friend.

All the best



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We Are All Accidents Waiting To Happen!!!!
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Oct 27, 2008, 12:40 am

Dave!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hello babe, I am so very happy you're here, tears ran down my face as soon as I saw your blog... I luv ya babe xxx



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From: Nettie54
Oct 26, 2008, 10:50 pm

It's so very very good to hear from you, my friend! Now for the 20 lashes with a wet noodle that I promised. LOL!

There is absolutely no way that you could ever bring me down by sharing your problems. And I don't feel like your problems are one more thing that I have to deal with. If I can help you through something to make things better for you, then by golly, that takes precedence over anything that may be going on with me. No more crawling off into the bushes, mister!! I was ready to send out the militia to find you, and hug you back into existence.

I will never change my feelings about you just because you have these problems. You just take good care of yourself and please keep us in the loop so that we can help you through your bad times. Real friends aren't just about good times.

I'm glad you're okay. Blessings & Love, Nettie

p.s. I hope this post doesn't sound like I'm yelling at you. If it does, then I'm just being stern with lots of love.



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Oct 26, 2008, 10:49 pm

welcome back my friend...love janet



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