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this shouldnt be so hard....
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By:
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samii
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Mood:
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Anxious
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Date:
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May 28, 2008
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Music:
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None
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im
a
bit
all
over
the
place.
my
parents
go
away
tomorrow,
early
morning
so
ive
just
said
goodbye
to
thm
for
2
and
a
half
weeks
- this
really
should
not
have
be
such
a
big
deal!
i
mean,
i
spent
a
year
away
from
them
a
few
years
back
so
this
should
be
a
doddle.
but
it
really
doesnt
feel
like
it.
ive
been
negative
recently
had
black
thoughts.
my
mind
isnt
stupid.
it
is
easy
to
realize
that
an
empty
house
(my
brother
will
be
at
work
most
of
the
time)
would
be
the
best
time
for
me
to
commit
suicide.
ive
even
thought
of
a
date.
friday
the
13th.
perfect.
this
is
not
something
i
WANT
to
do
though.
i
mean
i
think
of
it
enough
but
my
life
ending
now
would
not
be
good.
i
could
get
better...
i
could
get
a
job,
a
girlfriend,
start
spending
quality
time
with
my
mates
again
and
stop
drinking
my
evenings
away.
those
are
the
things
i
WANT.
not
death.
i
just
dont
feel
strong
at
the
moment,
so
its
suicide
that
occupies
my
mind.
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