Needing to Vent

By: Raebart
Mood: Frustrated
Date: Sep 16, 2010
Music: None

I've never done this before.  Thought it would be wrong.  Not only did it take forever to find a place to blog but it took forever to just get where I am.  I so needed someplace to just let loose and say what I was feeling.  Frustrated, angry, sad, disappointed, misunderstood and most of all disgusted.  I am normally an optimistic person.  As a matter of fact, I usually have no patience for people who are negative but tonight for some reason I just want to be a whiney little snot.  But I just realized that I am too tired to rant and rave.  It took too long just to find someplace that I could type out what I was feeling.  So now I am just tired and extremely sad.  This so sucks.  My heart goes out to all those that just feel alone like no one understands.  You know what, it is quite possible that those around you don't.  But there are those of us who do know what it's like to be in a room full of people and still be alone.  To ponder the need to see another day.  To force a smile and say you're ok one more time although you feel like you could just explode from all the pent up frustration.  The need to talk yourself down to an ok place.  To look in the mirror and try and convince yourself you are like everyone else and it will all get better.  I have been down this road so many times it should probably be named after me.  But to those of you that may actually find this and read it,  you really aren't alone.  I am here and so are so many.  Just putting some of my thoughts down really does help.  So fake that smile one more time and go forward because if I have learned anything it's this:   Today may suck but tomorrow may shine.  There really are silver linings to those clouds and somewhere over that rainbow dreams do come true.