Depression

My life should be a movie I had it all at one point in time typical story for an addict and alcoholic. But alcohol and drugs basically destroyed everything around me ( big surprise, haha ). I got sober for a while which was easy, so easy that when my life turned to sh*t after relationships ( which was started in early sobriety, not a good idea ) crumbled, I then once again went on a crazy binge for months ending up in the hospitol for 3 days detox and now I have made the firm choice (I pray) of being clean and sober for the rest of my life because there is no other way. I am in out patient and go to AA. Now the hard part is what to do with myself where to go how to have fun ( fun? what the f*ck does that word mean again? )blah blah blah right? Being sober and lonely I have to say is worse than the worst come down from any drug, but I know eventually I will feel good again and I wanna meet more sober people my age. So where the hell are you?

I love cooking that is my career. I play drums in a band. I recently started Mountain Biking again so as to take my mind off things. I love music, being outdoors, hiking, getting coffee, concerts, and spur of the moment activities. Metal, Rockabilly, Tattoos, Hotrods, Pin up models..........

Reverand Horton Heat, The Meteors, Stray Cats, Lamb of God, Mastedon, Slayer, Alice In Chains, Kyuss, The Sword, Queens of The Stone Age and on an on.......

Everville, The Damnation Game, Zombie Survival Guide, World War Z, Brave New World, The Secret

Hellraiser, Japanese Horror, Leaving Las Vegas, Fear and loathing in Las Vegas, The Big Lebowski, American Physco, Eraserhead, Blue Velvet, Walk The Line, Etc....

Trying to redefine what fun is and means but in the mean time I enjoy, music, playing drums, and mountain biking.