Depression

I was depressed when I was 10, then i was depressed again from 13 1/2 onwards for no real reason other than biology. I have acute social anxiety as well which I've had cbt for to no avail. I'm trying anti-psychotics for some symptoms I have but I've no diagnosis which is a bit frustrating. I don't go out much, especially alone but my bf is the same so we do it together. I do a computing class at a drop in centre. I don't work. I don't have any friends anymore and as I find it hard to form friendships I'd like to have more ppl to talk to online. I'm not that depressed at the moment but I do feel it has permenantly damaged me. my prerogative is to try to relax into this life and get on with it best I can.

Music
films
good food
new clothes
holidays
feeling free
my kitty
Pouring Rain
Thunder
weather that inconveniences people
silence
night time
shopping
the internet
dancing alone
singing
my flat
rollercoasters
tea
alcohol in moderation
sleeping

Going out when I'm not feeling very good

depression

anxiety

washing up

Judgemental People

feeling ill

smoking

my lack of concentration

big dogs
phonecalls
hairdrying
chatting
neighbours
neighbours' visitors
my life
my arms
ebay scammers
impulse buys
money
cbt
driving far
t-shirt weather
lack of independance
boredom

Gods in Alabama

The Vanishing Act of Esme Lennox

-the only books I've read recently

Spirited away

The Lives of others

Apocalypto

Battlestar Galactica

Serenity

March of the Penguins

TV:Arrested development

Sopranos

Lost

hollyoaks

Listening to music

watching films
reading