Depression Tribe

Greetings! I am a 29 year old woman whose social anxiety and depression due to Post Traumatic Stress Disorder have compromised my ability to relate with what most people think of as ordinary everyday life. So much so that I have lost touch with many friends and family members, as I have had a tendency to isolate myself.I have had to stop working for a few years now as my job was causing me so much misery that I feared that I might take very drastic and final measures. I knew that something had to change , so I quit my job. No longer being employed has caused me endless amounts of grief and shame.People often ask me "So, where are you working now?" I shrink into myself,and try to find the response that both sheilds my fragile self worth and provides a satisfactory yet evasive answer to the question at hand.Why must people continue to ask this question? I have morned my failures and I am now ready to regroup and start building a life and career that is motivating and meaningful to me. My new dedication to seeking what will make me authentically happy to be alive has definitely proven to have profound monitary and social drawbacks. I have found it most difficult to make new friends lately. I have noticed that people mostly seem to relate and develop common interests which in time lead to comradery through common work places, higher education and leisure activities. I have a great passion for learning and plan to return to higher education once I am able to get these wacky afflictions of depression and anxiety to a manageable level...Hopefully sooner than later:) In summary, I am a soft shelled optimistic eccentric living in a harsh, and at times cruel world.. I really miss being a part of it all, despite it's callous tendencies....

People who are kind,intelligent,empathetic,humourous,talkative/charismatic,and considerate.

Other likes:good suprises,self realisation, being appreciated for the right reasons, feeling productive,dogs, little epiphanies,felling inspired and creative,

People who behave in the following ways:Cruel,malicious,condiscending,erratic,insensitivity,choosing ignorance,violent,two-faced,deceitful,superficial.

Other dislikes:Materialism,wet socks,the smell of seafood,rush hour in the subway,being objectified,being allegic to too many things,Discrimination agaist any group of people ie.fascism. Certain things about my past,BEING BORED!!!

David Bowie,The Beatles,The Velvet Underground, THE Clash,Jayne County, The Cure, The Police, Guns'n Roses, Belle&; Sebastian, Bjork, Sinead O'Connor, Devo,!!! Smashing Pumpkins!!!! Pulp, T Rex, Manic Street Preachers, New Order, Jackson 5 &; early Michael Jackson, Blondie, Syd Barrett, Siouxie and the Banshees, Serge Gainsbourg,Black Sabbath, George Michael,Led Zeppelin,Johnny Cash,Frank Zappa,Snakefinger,Radiohead,

In desperate attempts to cure my sorry sappy self of my ongoing blues, I have been reading a notable amount of self help books, after I have chosen them with great hesitancy and discrimination to assure that they are not 100% bull crap. As far as novels go i enjoy: Kurt Vonnegut JR, Henry Miller, Charles Bukowski, Jonathan Franzen, Anais Nin (Some). The last novel that I read was "Female Chauvinist Pigs" by Ariel Levy. I'm most intrigued by psychology, sociology,some anthropology. I also have an insatiable appetite for learning about proper nutrition and drug-free health treatments.

Bob Roberts, How to get ahead in advertising, Zoolander, The Royal Tennenbaums, Vampire's kiss, Wild at Heart, The Rocky Horror Picture Show, High Fidelity,Hedwig and the angry inch, Heavy Metal:A Headbanger's Journey, Labyrinth, The South Park Movie, Ghostworld, Trekkies 1&;2, The princess bride,Pretty in pink,Many Troma productions,Some kind of wonderful,Crybaby,Pecker,Napoleon Dynamite,Dancer in the dark,Henry &; June,Iris,American Psycho,Some like it hot,Waiting for Guffman, Spinal Tap,My life with Morrissey(one of the funniest movies that I've seen yet), Victor/Victoria, Legend, Jan Svankmeyer's Alice &; Faust, Jacob's ladder, Seven, FUBAR ,American movie,Idiocracy

Yoga,claywork,trying to find the purpose of my existence,dancing,being online,Getting out of town(when I can)tv(c'mon it's a hobby when you're depressed)trying to read when I don't have a headache,writing,Trying to find hobbies/care about anything:)

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