Depression

Im 29....with the BIG 3-0 coming on fast...I'm a Mama to a young son! I work. I miss the not so heavy....not so tired....not so unhappy ME! Im a struggler....from birth! Im a product of my childhood and thus far its eating me alive...I want to live and love and JUST BE HAPPY...i want to be the kind of person i was meant to be...i damn sure refuse to live this way any longer....NOW WHERE AND HOW DO I START???

Your Depression Level: 76%

You seem to have moderate depression. Your symptoms are bad enough that they're effecting your everyday life. You would benefit greatly from professional help.

I'd like to truely find some peace...I love music...all types....i havent lived much...but plan on doing alot of it before its too late. I want to someday finish Radio/TV Productions...then go on to learn how to produce sweet sweet music....i love to write when i can get a thought out of this mess of a mind...ive been working on a song....i got the words and a friend is helping with the music...who knows? MY SON...he is one of the bravest lil guys i know...so much braver than i ever thought of being... and hes a proud boy...i love him deeply...i want to be better for him...he knows his Mama is sad....i want to love him more... talk with him more...i want to run with him and ruff-house and LAUGH MORE with him...HE DESERVES IT!!!! and so do I!!!

...*sigh*...

**FREE TIBET**
Boycott the Summer Games in Beijing!!
DONT WATCH-DONT SUPPORT!! China's unhumane treatment of LIFE!!!

This is something i get EXCITED about...I LOVE MUSIC....resently turned on to reggae...love it...roots and dub...a lil' dancehall....i love music....americana....Ryan Adams Lucinda Williams...and more! I like the 90's....even tho' cheezy....oh and I must tell ya'll i was the BIGGEST NKOTB fan growing up and that im a lil' bit excited that they r together again...lol i didnt see them when i was younger...and now i plan on it just so i can get it out of my system...i by no means think they rock like they use too...

Paty Boyds book-"You Look Wonderful"
H.H. the Dalia Lamas book-"My Land and My People"
it will take forever to finish those...cuz i usually have my nose in anything from "Green Eggs and Ham" to "Mother Goose's Bedtime stories"

ummm....pretty much anything a 7yr old can watch...lol
I love "Gone With The Wind"! and John Wayne's "True Grit"....i like movies that make ya think and i like "chick flicks"...what? im a girl!

I have no idea....learning what it really is i like to do...OPEN TO SUGGESTION!!!