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Jen3577
My URL: http://www.depressiontribe.com/jen3577

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DRINK: No
RELIGION: Not Religious
ORIENTATION: Straight
DATING STATUS: Married
MEMBER SINCE: October 28, 2010
POINTS: [ 3401 ]
GENDER: Female
LOCATION: New York, United States
AGE: 38
VIEWS: 1989
STAR SIGN: Pisces
LAST LOGIN: 06.25.15




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as of an update about a year ago- happily married, 4 kids between me and the hubby, like meeting new people. I can be shy at first but I value friendships immensely. My diagnoses are treatment resistant depression, social anxiety/generalized anxiety disorder, and PTSD. I am going through the beginnings of empty nest syndrome with my 2 biological sons, 18 and 17 yrs old, which is very hard to cope with since more than half my life I have based my identity on being a mom; I know they still need me but I feel lost and purposeless a lot of the time. I don't have a huge support network, having had to cut off my family for my own mental health. To tell the truth, if it weren't for my husband and kids I'd have given up long ago, but for now it feels like I am just existing and not really alive. It is very hard for me to share these kind of feelings because I don't want to depress anyone else and because I have had friends in the past who are overwhelmed by my depression and don't contact me anymore or very rarely, so I just bottle it up til I cry because I feel so empty, Years ago I knew what I wanted out of life and am so off course and no matter what combination of meds they put me on, I feel like I will never be happy or be able to trust it will last.

as of today- have a job that gives me purpose as a patient tranporter- I LOVE being able to comfort/ connect with people who are in the hospital for whatever reason and possibly even be one of the few bright spots in their day. My 18 and almost 20 year old are moving out because of a nightmare experience for all of us, but will not accept responsibility for the cruel things that were said, ultimatums made, and a physical threat. I have humbly apologized for my role. Am getting evicted for standing up to my landlord after a year of horrendous living conditions and apathy on his part. Have trouble enjoying my days off because my brain is my worst enemy. Don't have anyone in my life I completely trust. It really hurts.


getting to know new people, reading, movies, cooking,spending time with my family

insensitive people, loneliness, social anxiety, slackers, people who cannot admit when they are wrong, ignorance/ disdain toward mental illness and toward its sufferers



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November 28, 2014, 3:54 pm
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 photo inkpotimage_zps4f627791.gifThe moving finger, having writ moves on. All your piety Nor wit cancel half a line Nor all yours Tears wash a word of it.Omar Khayyam
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August 30, 2014, 1:50 am
hope you have a purrrrfect weekend. ya,it's corny, i know. lolrelaxing photo: relaxing cat relaxingcat.jpg

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May 8, 2014, 3:07 pm
Thank you Jen. I appreciate your warm comment. xx,muppet

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May 1, 2014, 11:11 am
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Our prime purpose in this life is to help others. And if you can't help them, at least don't hurt them.
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From: maycee
April 16, 2014, 3:19 am


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Our prime purpose in this life is to help others. And if you can't help them, at least don't hurt them.
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norah jones, pink, maroon 5, depends on the mood really. a lot of 80's and 90's music too. lately I am into spotify to discover new artists but give me some Bon Jovi any day

always up for suggestions. love to read and have a kindle

varies. something that can make me laugh my ass off, something that makes me think/feel

Netflix

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