"WORDSMITH"
A drawing by Tim of my superhero alter-ego.
Transgiving Performance 2007
Photogragh by Leaf, 2007
Three years ago, I had another major depressive episode, and my life hasn’t been the same since. My psychiatrist sees that episode as a kind of psychotic break, even though it doesn’t adhere to traditional definitions of psychosis. But I did suddenly leave my university teaching career and had to discontinue my Ph.D. degree.
For three years now, I’ve been struggling to take back my life, to get my mental illness under control. It’s been a long hard struggle, but I’ve learned over these years to deal better with my anxiety and depression, I’ve learned to be more positive in my thoughts and in my approach to life, and I experience times when I feel hopeful about my future again. I would even say that during this time, I’ve even been happy!
After years of being diagnosed with major depression, I’ve recently been re-diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder II. I’m hopeful that this new diagnosis will help me to get the appropriate meds that I need.
Currently, I’m writing full time and touring, performing my original spoken word at art venues around the country. I love my job. I just wish I made more money doing it! My career goal is to make a secure living through my writing.
I’ve been a member of Depression Tribe for going on two years now. I truly believe that this site is what you make of it. For me, it’s a hiding place of sorts, a safe place where I can blog and connect to others who also suffer from mental illness.
Thank
you
for
your
reply
on
my
forum,
its
nice
when
you're
screaming
as
loud
as
you
can
with
your
hands
waving
in
th
air
and
someone
just
so
happens
to
notice....
and
then
20
more..
I
appreciate
it
a
whole
bunch
because
I
am
just
going
through
some
rough
life
changes,
trying
to
change
myself
and
taper
of
these
God
forsaken
antidepressants.
Anywho...
big
mess.
Look
forward
to
talking
to
to
you
later,
ps
ur
kitty
is
adorable!
Thank
you
for
your
reply
on
my
forum,
its
nice
when
you're
screaming
as
loud
as
you
can
with
your
hands
waving
in
th
air
and
someone
just
so
happens
to
notice....
and
then
20
more..
I
appreciate
it
a
whole
bunch
because
I
am
just
going
through
some
rough
life
changes,
trying
to
change
myself
and
taper
of
these
God
forsaken
antidepressants.
Anywho...
big
mess.
Look
forward
to
talking
to
to
you
later,
ps
ur
kitty
is
adorable!
'The world is a bad place....a bad place......a sad place....a terrible place to live....but I don't want to die.....'Reflections of my Life,' The Marmalade
All poems and songs were written and performed by me with these exceptions:
"The Crapitalist" was written by me and performed by Ross Falzone
"The Truth" was written and performed by Ross Falzone and features a rap written and performed by me.
"Ain't It A Shame" was written and performed by Ross Falzone and features a rap written and performed by me.
All music was written and performed by Ross Falzone, with the exception of music for "Sunday Burial" which was written and performed by Linda Kernohan.
