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Sadviolinist
"Sometimes I feel as cold as steel, broken like I'm never going to heal..."
My URL: http://www.depressiontribe.com/sadviolinist

JOB: Teacher
SMOKE: No
DRINK: Socially
RELIGION: Prefer not disclose
ORIENTATION: Straight
DATING STATUS: Married
MEMBER SINCE: October 26, 2007
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GENDER: Female
LOCATION: Florida, United States
AGE: 33
VIEWS: 8050
STAR SIGN: Leo
LAST LOGIN: Online Now




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I have Bipolar II disorder, as well as GAD, mixed personality disorder, and PTSD. This is what it all feels like...


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I am a generally laid back person. I am bipolar and have problems with chronic depression. I am a survivor of incest/molestations, and emotional abuse. Tendency towards low self-esteem; but working on it. Hoping to find a place I belong work~wise and enjoy. Trained professional violinist and music/elementary education teacher~ though I haven't taught public school as anything more than a substitue lately. Currently cashiering part-time at with a great team of people. :-D I believe I am caring, empathetic, loving and overly-kind to the point of letting myself get hurt for others' benefits (This is something I'm leaning not to do!). I love deeply and trust until you give me reason not to, and then it takes forever for me to forgive. I have a lot of bouts of anger and sorrow over the past, but am learning through therapy how to let the past go.

I'm not one for labels really~ I doesn't matter to me what religion, if any, you follow. I don't judge people on their past or their illness or level of education, walk of life, or where you may be sexually. It doesn't matter. You are loved and beautiful no matter what.





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I'm a good listener and enjoy helping others through their hard times. It makes us both healthier people.

I believe that no matter what I feel at any given time, there is always beauty in life to find~ it's just a matter of making yourself look for it.



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In loving memory of Bryancats...may we meet again someday my beautiful friend. Until then, I send my love. HUGS and Kisses always.








My awesome little guy! <3 <3 <3


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I am a musician, so all types of music! I love the beach at night, full moons, stars- anything dealing with astronomy... I like quiet walks in the woods, reading in bed, rain, journaling and blogging, playing with my son, laughing so hard that my stomach hurts, playing violin and singing, hanging out with friends, playing pool, taking photos (very amateur though), nursing animals back to health, and this list goes on and on. One of my favorite things is fairies. I love the beauty they represent, and the tie to nature.I love my animals, waterfalls and nature in general. I enjoy helping other people.


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Being sick. Feeling lonely and despairing. Sorrow. Humid heat. Insomnia. The huge drop after a hypomanic episode into total chaos and self-hate. Not fond of being "labeled" to fit into someone else's need to categorize people.

INTOLERANCE and IGNORANCE!!! BULLYING!!!
We all need to accept and love one another for what we are ~ flaws and all!




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From: Liz0223
April 21, 2014, 9:33 am
Thanks for the visit and cute bunnies you left on my page. I did have a wonderful Easter and hope you did as well. Take care and enjoy your week. Hugs, Liz

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Come fly with me ... the best is yet to be!
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April 21, 2014, 5:29 am
LOL HE REMINDED ME OF A CAMEL TOO ME AND MARY HEHEEHEHE I LOVE AND ADORE Y0U LIL SISTER CHECK OUT THAT DELANE JUST HR SELF ITS TRUE GLAD YOU 2 HAVE CONNECED YOUR BOTH IN FOR A TREAT YOU KNOW DOLL YOU ALREADY KNOW HUGS AND CHEEKY KISSES YOU CAN'T KILL OUR SPIRITS LIKE A MONTAIN WE GO ON AND ON YOU ROCK KID BIG LOVE DR SPARKY LMAO

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From: delane
April 20, 2014, 3:21 pm
Thanks for the msg and greeting! (i dunno what you've heard...lol...but, just me..plain and simple-ish.) Hope you've had a great day, too!!!! (and, again, love the graphics and pics on ur page!!) t/c, my friend.

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'We are all in the same game; Just different levels. Dealing with the same hell; just different levels.'
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April 20, 2014, 2:07 pm
He reminds me of a camel. Hope you are enjoying the Holiday. Happy Easter.

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Coexisting with mental illness
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From: Napy666
April 20, 2014, 1:12 pm
Thanks Easter has started off fine so far, hope yours has been going well. :)

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I'm trying SO HARD to remember the good things to keep me going...





This song describes me perfectly...





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Almost everything. You'd be suprised at how many different types I enjoy listening to or performing. :-)


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This is almost exactly the fairy I have on my back, but in mine there's a second rose with a baby (representing my son) and the fairy is reaching out to him to hold him. It was commemorative because we survived such a horrible pregnancy where we both could have easily died.








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Inspirational reading from people like Wayne Dyer and the philosopher Rumi,
"Watership Down",
Stephanie Meyers' "The Host" and the "Twilight Saga",
Barbara Kingsolver's "Prodigal Summer"
, Anita Diamante's "The Red Tent",
Stephen King,
Dean Koontz,
"I Know This Much is True" and "She's Come Undone" by Wally Lamb
, "Juniper Tree Burning" (unsure of author),
"Violin" by Anne Rice and others she wrote,
"The Loop",
"Clan of the Cave Bear" series,
"Shibumi",
"Icy Sparks"
"Across The Mountains"

...and many classics.
I love fiction and enjoy some biographies, and books on getting in touch with my inner being. I'm also into learning about auras, eastern philosophies, and mediumship.


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Avatar, The Secret of Nimh,
The Hangover,
Juno,
What Dreams May Come,
Secondhand Lions,
Memoirs of a Geisha,
Powder,
Silence of the Lambs,
Little Miss Sunshine,
The Last Unicorn,
The Dark Crystal,
Labryinth,
Patch Adams,
Dodgeball,
Napolean Dynamite,
The Harry Potter Series,
Slums of Beverly Hills,
The Lost Boys,
Twilight Series (yes, I know...I'm too old for that, lol),
Bram Stoker's Dracula,
Legends of the Fall,
The Green Mile
Batman Begins Series
Wall-E
Up
The Jungle Book
The Lion King
Pocahontas
Ice Age
Monsters Inc.
Brokeback Mountain
We're The Millers


...anything that makes me think, laugh, is dramatic or surprises me.


This is my newest favorite short film ~ The Butterfly Dragon...





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Hobbies: Combing the beach for seashells and shark's teeth, walking through the woods and hiking, caring for injured animals, journaling, blogging and writing friends, facebook positivity page, learning to be at peace with myself, loving my son and my husband, playing violin/viola, singing to favorite songs, meditation (beginner), naps and most recently exercise.




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I love the Phoenix~ because it represents being reborn from the ashes of it's past. It fits who I am in so many ways.

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