Depression Tribe

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I was recently diagnosed with Bipolar II disorder and I'm trying to get my head wrapped around it. At this point I am unable to work, so I'm trying to find a way to structure my days so I don't feel quite so lost.












I am a generally laid back person. I am bipolar and have problems with chronic depression. I am a survivor of incest/molestations, and emotional abuse. Tendency towards low self-esteem; but working on it. Hoping to find a place I belong work~wise and enjoy. Trained professional violinist and music/elementary education teacher~ though I haven't taught public school as anything more than a substitue lately. Currently cashiering part-time at with a great team of people. :-D I believe I am caring, empathetic, loving and overly-kind to the point of letting myself get hurt for others' benefits (This is something I'm leaning not to do!). I love deeply and trust until you give me reason not to, and then it takes forever for me to forgive. I have a lot of bouts of anger and sorrow over the past, but am learning through therapy how to let the past go.

I'm not one for labels really~ I doesn't matter to me what religion, if any, you follow. I don't judge people on their past or their illness or level of education, walk of life, or where you may be sexually. It doesn't matter. You are loved and beautiful no matter what.











































I'm a good listener and enjoy helping others through their hard times. It makes us both healthier people.

I believe that no matter what I feel at any given time, there is always beauty in life to find~ it's just a matter of making yourself look for it.






In loving memory of Bryancats...may we meet again someday my beautiful friend. Until then, I send my love. HUGS and Kisses always.

I am a musician, so all types of music! I love the beach at night, full moons, stars- anything dealing with astronomy... I like quiet walks in the woods, reading in bed, rain, journaling and blogging, playing with my son, laughing so hard that my stomach hurts, playing violin and singing, hanging out with friends, playing pool, taking photos (very amateur though), nursing animals back to health, and this list goes on and on. One of my favorite things is fairies. I love the beauty they represent, and the tie to nature.I love my animals, waterfalls and nature in general. I enjoy helping other people.

Being sick. Feeling lonely and despairing. Sorrow. Humid heat. Insomnia. The huge drop after a hypomanic episode into total chaos and self-hate. Not fond of being "labeled" to fit into someone else's need to catogorize people.








INTOLERANCE and IGNORANCE!!! BULLYING!!!

Almost everything. You'd be suprised at how many different types I enjoy listening to or performing. :-)





This is almost exactly the fairy I have on my back, but in mine there's a second rose with a baby (representing my son) and the fairy is reaching out to him to hold him. It was commemorative because we survived such a horrible pregnancy where we both could have easily died.

Inspirational reading from people like Wayne Dyer and the philosopher Rumi, "Watership Down", Stephanie Meyers' "The Host" and the "Twilight Saga",Barbara Kingsolver's "Prodigal Summer", Anita Diamante's "The Red Tent", Stephen King, Dean Koontz, "I Know This Much is True" and "She's Come Undone" by Wally Lamb, "Juniper Tree Burning" (unsure of author),"Violin" by Anne Rice and others she wrote, "The Loop", "Clan of the Cave Bear" series, "Shibumi", and many classics. Right now I'm catching up on reading...doing the Harry Potter books at the moment, and starting one called Icy Sparks. I'll let you know what I think of them! :-) I love fiction and enjoy some biographies, and books on getting in touch with my inner being. I'm also into learning about auras, eastern philosophies, and mediumship.

Avatar, The Secret of Nimh, The Hangover, Juno, What Dreams May Come, Secondhand Lions, Memoirs of a Geisha, Powder, Silence of the Lambs, Little Miss Sunshine, The Last Unicorn, The Dark Crystal, Labryinth, Patch Adams, Dodgeball, Napolean Dynamite, The Harry Potter Series, Slums of Beverly Hills, The Lost Boys, Twilight Series (yes, I know...I'm too old for that, lol), Bram Stoker's Dracula, Legends of the Fall, anything that makes me think or surprises me. I also love anything Pixar. Right now my favorites are Wall-E and Up. I'm also still in love with The Last Unicorn and it's soundtrack by America.


This is my newest favorite short film ~ The Butterfly Dragon...

Hobbies: Combing the beach for seashells and shark's teeth, walking through the woods and hiking, caring for injured animals, journaling, blogging and writing friends, facebook positivity page, learning to be at peace with myself, loving my son and my husband, playing violin/viola, singing to favorite songs, meditation (beginner), naps!



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I love the Phoenix~ because it represents being reborn from the ashes of it's past. It fits who I am in so many ways.

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Keya
Birthday:	8/20/1980
Birthplace:	Vero Beach, FL
Current Location:
Eye Color:	greenish grayish blue
Hair Color:	currently dark auburn
Height:	5'4''
Right Handed or Left Handed:	I'm a lefty ~ yes!
The Shoes You Wore Today:	slip ons
Your Weakness:	Magnum Ice Cream Bars
Your Fears:	waves, tornadoes, being alone in life
Your Perfect Pizza:	margherita pizza with bacon
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	to quit smoking and murdering my lungs
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	LOL of course
Thoughts First Waking Up:	Have to get my son up for school
Your Best Physical Feature:	My eyes
Your Bedtime:	whenever I go to sleep
Your Most Missed Memory:	Anytime before I got really sick with Bipolar
Pepsi or Coke:	COKE!!!
MacDonalds or Burger King:	McDonalds
Single or Group Dates:	Group dates are more fun at this point
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	neither ~ I like hot tea with teabags
Chocolate or Vanilla:	depends on what it is, I love both
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Coffee is preferred most of the time
Do you Smoke:	yes unfortunately
Do you Swear:	H*ll yeah! LOL ~ not much
Do you Sing:	Every day when I'm driving or showering
Do you Shower Daily:	just answered that
Have you Been in Love:	Yes, with my husband. Still am most of the time ;-)
Do you want to get Married:	already did
Do you belive in yourself:	sometimes
Do you get Motion Sickness:	so bad!
Do you think you are Attractive:	sometimes
Are you a Health Freak:	not at all
Do you get along with your Parents:	yes and no
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Love to watch thunderstorms! They're so beautiful!
Do you play an Instrument:	Violin, viola and voice
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	yes, had drinks with friends over the weekend
In the past month have you Smoked:	just tobacco
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	yes with my hubby
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	nope
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	nope
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	Yes, twice! I like sushi.
In the past month have you been on Stage:	No
In the past month have you been Dumped:	no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	never
Ever been Drunk:	Yes, hasn't almost everyone?
Ever been called a Tease:	no
Ever been Beaten up:	no, unless you count me doing it myself...
Ever Shoplifted:	no
How do you want to Die:	peacefully in my sleep
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	Still not sure...lol
What country would you most like to Visit:	Ireland
Number of Drugs I have taken:	2 different kinds
Number of CDs I own:	over 50
Number of Piercings:	2 in each ear, used to have nose and bellybutton
Number of Tattoos:	1 large one on my back commemorating Zach's birth
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	I try not to think about it and just move on with my life
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