The thing thats eating my lunch....is the thought of losing and my son laying in his bed at night....with this empty feeling in his gut....his lil mind racing...when he breathes in...it only makes him feel sadder...not really understanding whats going on....but only knowing im not there!! And i would be here 100's of miles from him....feeling his little soul....feeling the lose and his sadness....on top of my feelings of pitty...shame...of being a failure....feeling all of it....wondering WHO is telling him...."No, baby there's no such thing as Monsters!"...when he asks...like he has since he was tiny....who?...if anyone will care?
I would CARE...ME!....HIS MAMA!....i know his scent....i know the faces he makes...i know when hes telling the truth and when hes lying...He cant look me in the eye!!! My son KNOWS im always gonna come to his rescue....but if i lose....i wont be able to make it all better!! They just have NO F*CKING idea what this is gonna do to his lil mind and soul...NO IDEA...
God...it kills me to think of it....That is why....I WILL FIGHT!!! Good Vs. Evil...Darkness can't stay where Light is....IM A GOOD MAMA!!! Mistakes and all....
