i have had failing relationship upon relationship. the men i meet turn out to all be alike. they act like they are so sweet in the beginning and then turn out to be emotionally retarded. at the end of the relationship i end up feeling like the breakup was all my fault. i feel like i was the main contributor of the falling out. and i then in turn feel stupid, used, hurt, hopeless, unloved, abandoned, rejected, ugly. it is a no-win situation. after this relationship i will not get into another one for a long time. i do not want to go through the heartache of this again. i sometimes believe that i am better off alone. as of now i feel numb.