feeling so much better than i did yesterday evening. yesterday evening was absolute hell, i could not not not see a future for me in this life.
today i feel ok. i just got invited to my friends birthday, which is cool. unfortunatly i wont be able to go which is making me a bit blue. its not so much missing out, thats a would be a really trivial thing for me to worry about, its more that it represents a larger picture - i had to move back with my parents from uni because i got too ill. i really miss my friends, but it would be difficult for me to go see them. i had a really close group of flatmates that i love so much, and its things like birthdays when i know they are all together that i fid it hardest.
