let me start by saying..I AM NOT A CAPRICORN,I AM A LIBRA.I lied.i have my reasons,one being that i am a very private person who doesnt care for the world to know its her birthday.i have never liked the attention it brings.i'm quiet, simple, humble,kind,compassionate,passionate, empathetic, patient and very soft spoken..easy going,openminded,very individualistic and pretty laid back..very mellow i guess you could say (it takes a lot to make me angry today) and still somewhat shy.i am a very forgiving person,and the first to apologize and to admit when i am wrong.i experienced the ultimate rejection in life..a traumatic childhood without love..i was abandoned,neglected and abused.it gets worse. at the age of 10 my mother married a drunken pervert,there are no happy memories.i have always been camera shy, thats why you'll never see my picture here.(and besides,i dont like being stared at,it gives me anxiety,lol).(actually,truthfully,i know better to never say never,lol).i've been married for 23 years.we have two great kids.my son still lives at home while hes attending school,my daughter moved out a year ago.my husband is a recovering alcoholic,sober for 10 years! amazing! thank god for AA! it works..but needless to say, much damage was done..between that and my lifelong depresssion things took their toll..we are both to blame..but whatever,we're each living one day at a time and peacefully..we are very supportive of each other today..we live we learn and we grow..never be afraid to message me,my door is always open,i am here to give and recieve support,helping others is what its all about...(nobody has to walk on egg shells around me)..its ok to just be yourself and to speak your mind..i am not one to ignore anybody..i might not be able to always respond right away,but i will respond..(silence sometimes speaks volumes)..the following is the only poem i've ever written..thus far..i wrote it about 10 years ago when i began to heal,to let go of my anger and to forgive.
A Little Girls Plea..
What’s the matter mommy?
Why are you so angry so unhappy
So sad?
I don’t understand why you are always
So mad!
Where is daddy? Why did he leave?
didn’t he love me? Was it because of me?
Tell me mommy! Tell me please!
Please don’t hit me I’ll be good,
I promised mommy I promised I would!
Please mommy!
Don’t lock me down there!
Its dark and lonely I feel so scared.
Please don’t tell me you’ll commit suicide!
What does that mean? does it mean you
Will die?
You cant leave me! I will stay by your side.
Please mommy don’t send me to school. I hate it there!
I can’t think! I can’t learn! i care only about you.
I loved you mommy! I loved you so much!
I needed hugs and kisses and a tender touch.
This is all I wanted was I asking too much?
I wish you could have loved me the way a mother should
But you didn’t know how. I forgive you for this
I forgive you now.
warm,kind,compassionate and down to earth people..spring!..warm sunny days, rainy days too..hugs!..swings!! i love to swing from the trees,lol..i have one in my back yard next to my fire pit and i have one of those old fashion porch swings hanging off the maple tree in my front yard (hey,its good exercise,lol)..hanging out in my backyard with friends around the fire.. solitude when i need it..long drives alone listening to mozart..common courtesy.. the ocean,the sights, the sounds,the smell..and the moon! i love a full moon! i love thunderstorms too.love love love the beatles, the soothing sounds of nature and beethoven too-MOONLIGHT SONATA
I LOVE EAGLES! I LOVE HOW THEY SOAR ALONE..
DISLIKES
..the world we live in..all the violence, all the pain and suffering..anger, negativity..chronic whiners and complainers..having to work so hard to stay positive..the disease of alcoholism..racism..war..intolerance..injustice..homelessness..poverty..gossip..arrogance..hypocrites..narrowminded,judgmental people..shallow people..vindictive people..lack of common courtesy..chat rooms and shoutboxes,lol..talking on the phone..winter.. dark basements..AND.. people who try to push their religion on you...My Life,My Choice.. to believe or not to believe.. i am as worthy as anyone regardless .."to each his own"
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