Depression

I don't know what to write. I guess your average garden variety wack job(..lol) I'm a college professor and computer tech at a community college. I'm a single parent and live in a country home in the middle of nowhere, nc by myself now. My ten year old daughter is my life. I'm well known in the area as a very understanding loving person to most and considered a genius by others that would never think I'm mentally ill which makes it hard for me to do anything here when I've helped so many. I guess you could say I'm an actor also.


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Women (of course), Stevie Nicks, Hope Sandoval, working on cars, motorcycles, hiking, fishing, shooting guns, riding 4wheelers, playing guitar, teaching, programming, spending time with my daughter, at times, being alone,and fixing everyone elses problems when I can't fix me.

"Attempting" to fix everone elses problems and still can't fix mine. People that criticize me for things I have no control over and make statements such as "get over it," "think positive", "Stop being depressed", don't be bipolar, etc.. Hate vitals; if i'm awake and alive, that should be enough. Not going out so I stay out of trouble. Can't stand asshole backstabbers because half the time I don't see them coming. Bills. Having to shave. Waking up in jail and having to ask what I did. Waking up period. Depression. Mania. Making decisions in stressful situations. My cat. Being overwhelmed. Being alone. Not being left alone by people that use me. My daughter yelling all the time. Feeling like the drunk that that woke up after the Great San Francisco fire that said: "How the f@ck am I gonna fix this one?" Oh, and can't forget the meds..........I think that about sums it up, although Im sure I could think of more...lol

Depends on my mood. Sometimes hard rock, old rock, soft rock, metal

Too many

Riding, fixing machines, cars, computers. Music, playing the guitar, fishing, building computers, programming, watching movies with my daughter by the fireplace w/ the incense burning and kero lamp lit. Playing cat and mouse with the police....lol