Depression

I've suffered with depression,on and off,since my mother passed away 17 years ago-at least that's when I feel it really started..I was only 9 at the time and I do think it affected me pretty negatively. I'm not looking for sympathy,although empathy would be nice,which is why i'm here. First and foremost I'm looking for friends...I'm a nice girl once you get to know me...I'm left-handed,which apparently means I'm creative and highly intelligent-I'll go with that,lol...I'm the girl who loves to watch horror movies in cinemas and laugh at the people screaming their heads off-but I'm not a sadist I promise...I want to have Lynyrd Skynyrd's Freebird played at my funeral...I have the kind of laugh that comatose people 30 miles away could probably hear-but I do love to laugh..sometimes..I don't like other people seeing me cry.....I have a huge crush on the actor/stuntman Kane Hodder,who is in his 50's,but I still would,lol...I also think Malcolm McDowell and Helen Mirren are attractive-guess I just appreciate the be

Horror movies,mint Feast ice cream bars,singing in the shower-badly!,graphic novels(emphasis on graphic!),comics,motorcycles,brunettes,well-built guys,crossword puzzles,pizza,Miller beer,the wrestler Mr. Kennedy (hence the alias above),holding hands (yeah sappy I know!), kissing (EXTRA sappy!), Lorne from the TV show ANGEL (He's just adorable!),a man who has a knack for taking his way into trouble-and fighting his way out of it,having true friends,the tribe (though not the reason I'm here,lol),people who make me laugh uncontrollably,musicals...

Racism,homophobia,being depressed,my medication,balloons(!),spiders,sudoku (WHY do ppl like it so much??),people who say one thing but mean another,hypodermic needles (seriously,I have a panic attack when I see one),crying,horror movie remakes,cold wet weather,classical music, having my heart broken (believe me, it sucks),people who pay to go to the cinema to see a horror movie and then proceed to spend the entire 90 minutes or so with their hands over their face. Oh and my stupid insomnia. I hate not being able to sleep

The Stand by Stephen King,The Hellbound Heart novella by Clive Barker,Odd Thomas by Dean Koontz,Red Dragon by Thomas Harris,Have A Nice Day! by Mick Foley,Strange Fascination (a David Bowie biography) by David Buckley,any true crime books

Halloween,Texas Chainsaw Massacre,Psycho,The Crow,Night of the Hunter (I'm a huge Robert Mitchum fan),Rear Window,Tomb Raider,Donnie Darko,Hellboy,Army of Darkness,etc...

Writing,reading and I have a radio gig once a week too,which is fun.

SURVIVORS OF SEXUAL ABUSE	Suicidal
Buffy the Vampire Slayer/Angel	AC/DC