Depression

Sometimes feel like living a life i could never have predicted, feel like i'm minding it for someone else. not had the right people around me. waiting for jeremy beadle (or Mr Trueman) to jump out at me and say, surprise, it's a wind up!! Would like have more time as the REAL me...

I'll leave this on for a bit and see how i feel and any comments i may get from others. All take care. Love and hugs to you all x

ps Sorry if i dont get back you/sign your guest book/add you as a friend as quicky as I would like. Like 'Britsh Rail' I am getting there x

pps dont judge me too quickly yet, I'm still getting used to the site and on top of how I am feeling (i'm sure you can relate.) (((hugs))) J X

Being happy, sharing it with nice people, not those who would be jealous/try to spoil the situation. Adventures, holidays, having someone there for me, giving back when i am strong to WORTHY people.

Animals - no hidden agendas there :-)

Operating to the best of my ability.

Being alone too much, not having anyone to give me a second opinon even on the little things, let alone a helping hand. Feeling down, lost, trapped, fustration...

Selfish, uncaring, greedy people.

People who take advantage of others when they are struggling already.

People going through bad times engineered by other people. (Knowingly or otherwise)

fun pop, uplifting, relaxation music (can't think of the right word), some classical. (great having no words at times) nothing depressing, although I can understand...

none,dont't like reading alone,feels very isolating, would rather live the good things i'm reading about.

Would like to write though, once i start, i think i could do good :-)

Although do like factual reading/documentaries when time/circumstances allow...

none, no action, no scary, no cheesy, no slimy.

Actually there are a few movies i would like to see...

??? not through choice, internet and too much tv

would like to live life to the full, think it gets back to not having the right people around me again