Depression

I have been diagnosed with post-natal depression almost 5 years ago, which carried on when my son was born 2 years ago. A few things (from my childhood) came on the surface and it got worse. I am scared to go out on my own, like quietness, as I have noise in my ears at all times. Always have been happy, but ow, I am a shell. Everyone says it will get better, but only I know that it wouldn't, no quickly anyway. I feel, that no one understands me, and feel isolated from life in general. I have two beautiful children, who are the best things in this world, but I don't feel the love I should. I have never had a friend and want one so much, but not being able to open up, makes it that much harder. What else can I say?

I like animals, books, trees and flowers. Everything that make sense and have a positive purpose in this world. Books are my world, I read a lot, anything and everything, I want to know so much, that I can pass it on, to my kids, whoever...

People, who pretend, doctors, who know everything. I don't like lies and arrogance. Right now, I don't like my life, but I know that it will change and I'll be happy. I don't like the way some people think and being narrow-minded about things. There is so much, I guess, that I don't like, but I can't think of anything else right now, so it wouldn't be worth mentioning it.

r&b mainly, but I listen to anything, that's nice and mellow.

danielle steel are my favorite. and forensic science books, anatomy and everything to do with body, it's fascinating.

i am not really into movies, but my absolute favorite were sleeping with the enemy and my best friend's wedding.

reading, dancing, swimming, cycling, although I haven't done it in a while.

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