Depression

i have been depressed for a very long time on and off since a very young age, i hide it well and have become an expert at hiding it. i have held down a great job, muddled through relationships and always had a sunny outlook.. to others. i am so grateful for all the good days however now i am wondering if i am bi polar at all. i havent been to a doctor for many years and maybe here in spain isnt the right place to go.i know there is something wrong however i have never quite worked it out.. good days and bad days.. like you all. i feel very isolated and alone at times and i can say frankly that no one really knows the real me. i am always the one to listen and pick up the pieces of others, however of late my fragile web is breaking and i can feel everything shifting.. and it scares me.
i havent been on this site since last june and am back now, managed to keep things at a good level for sometime however sinking back again and its the proverbial hell once again. i feel very isolted where i live which is usually a good thing, i have no tv or phone and havent done for years. i look out onto the sea and mountains from my windows everyday and it does help. i am single at the moment and am ready for someone in life however its very hard to meet someone when you live right in the middle of no where so i am trying the internet.. who knows? kind wishes and sunshine to you all. wendy x

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